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Just getting over this damn chest infection,and feeling a lot better chest wise..I was wondering how many of you peeps get depressed regarding your illness? I have always been a happy person ,even though diagnosed with" clinical depression and anxiety" I just got on with things and masked that side of things..I am now having more down days than up and wonder how you help yourselves get through it..

Understandably when you can't breathe this makes things worse,and I get some days I think how beautiful this world and nature is,then the dark cloud looms and I am back to square one..

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Oh I have just read this and it totally resonates! My husband has never been depressed - difficult, bad tempered, perfectionist (I could go on - only joking!!) but recently is getting very depressed. He feels extremely frustrated that he is unable to do what he wants to. It is a very frustrating illness. He has been given an anti-depressant but true to form - change his meds and there is always a problem - they have made his breathing worse and that has made his depression worse!

Apparently CBT is very effective (cognitive behaviour therapy) but there is very little funding for it! I personally have found that acupuncture has been a god send for me - it really has helped to lift my mood. To be honest I have been finding the whole COPD thing pretty depressing too! Its all the extra work that goes into doing anything - planning - is there stairs? will it be too hot? will it be too cold? can we park nearby? etc. etc. the list is endless and I have found it very wearing.

I did talk to the pharmacist and there is a couple of herbal remedies that are pretty good in short term for helping with lifting moods. That might help. I don't think there is an easy answer but I have also been told that meditation is very good too.

Glad to hear your chest is improving. Take good care and take heart in the fact you are not the only one! Lots of love TAD xxx

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Thank you Tad,The g.p gave me Mirtazapine but I find I am constantly nodding and this in turn makes you feel low..Your right in planning the day,even a ride to the shops, I am checking inhaler tabs etc and then there's the driving around trying to get as near to the shops as possible..

You are going through a lot as a carer,and people dont give enough time to carers as they should.People tend to forget that carers goes through so much!!My boyfriend is constantly being worn down bless, by hospital visits and all the caring side that goes with it..I feel so sorry for him at times, and we are just trudging along hoping that maybe this op will change things.In my honest opinion I think he is hoping for a miracle and I will be the happy bunny I used to be..

I used to have a lot of interest in a lot of things,but now its like you said,life revolves around how to get through the day if you have to shop or go anywhere..

I find I am hiding from ppl I know as they say things like I can't believe how you have deteriated and how quickly you have gone down hill..I really hate it and its got to the stage I avoid them.

Poor you going through so much,and understandably you must grit your teeth and get on with things,its just as hard for you and it must be depressing to see your beloved this way...

I tried St Johns wart once, but it interfered with my meds, but I certainly be looking into acupuncture!! Thanks for the response,you certainly gave me food for thought! I think your amazing,..Your husband is very lucky to have someone who loves him so much..

Thanks once again...Laura xxx

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Not quite amazing - though thank you xxxx

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You are Tadaw,and people like you are hard to find xxxx

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I have been fighting depression for a while but after a bout of bad shingles lasting over 6 week I hit rock bottom. I went to the doctor who prescribed citalipram. I feel sure depression, reflux, thyroid problems and dry skin all go hand in hand with COPD. I was told a natural remedy for depression was St John wart. I hope you feeling down is just part of your recovery from the chest infection and the sun will shine on your grey days soon.

Take care

Love and hugs

GJ

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Aww thank you Ohtwo,I tried St johns wart , but was told it will affect your inhalers and meds..I think your right ,Its the aftermath of the chest infection..I have reflux and all the ailments that go with Emphysema,also gall stones and a cyst on Kidney that has just been diagnosed..

Omg shingles,I have heard they are so painful!! Poor you..My sis had cancer and she told me the pain from the shingles was worse.I was shocked!!

How is your depression now? I get it sometimes like a black cloud decends and it can last days or weeks,and then some day I will wake and every thing looks different!

Keep smiling and take care,Thank you xxx

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A cyst on your kidneys, sounds painful. Will you have to have it remove???

How's your sister??

When my black clouds descended I would ride them out rather than put up a fight, the seemed to pass quicker. I have been taking the tablets for about six weeks, I do feel a little brighter but I can sleep for England. I set my alarm and will myself to get out of bed. Once up I'm OK but if I go back to sleep I can sleep til lunch.

Kindest Regards

GJ

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I am awaiting a lung reduction op at the Royal Brompton,still awaiting a date..Since my last exacerbation they found the cyst and gall stones!.I kept telling them I had pain under my left rib and my right rib lol I think if I had a sore thumb they would tell me its from the copd lol.

As for my sis she passed away few years ago, but always remember her telling me about shingles..ouch

It takes a while for anti/depressants to kick in and when they do,I too can sleep, but after a few weeks your body gets used to them..The thing with mine is I cannot stop eating!!Between them and steroids I am fighting a losing battle..

I have to see a Renal specialist in few weeks regarding cyst,think they are going to leave the gall stones to dance alone lol...

Take care Keep smiling GJ..Regards Laura

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I hope you get a date soon. I also had a severe pain under my right rib, my doctor thought gallstones but the ultra sound found nothing. I changed my reflux meds and have not had the pain since. Sorry to hear about your sister, I lost my sister when I was in my early 20's. I look forward to getting used to the citalopram and not needing a lot of sleep. At the moment I m having problems with my weight and it is not helping the depression. To think 2 years ago I worked full time and was 9 stone. Now I can't work, I'm on oxygen 8lpm, when mobile, and 3 stone heavier. I bought a treadmill but was unable to use it as my heart rate was too high due to thyroid problems. I was also pulled off PR. The hospital give me the go ahead to exercise and then I got the shingles. Luckily I go back to the hospital tomorrow so fingers crossed the thyroid is stable and I get to exercise.

Will the hospital want your cyst sorted before the lung op or vice Versa?

I'm smiling and will continue to do so. I may seem full of woe but I have countless blessing. One of them being this site where I can be honest in my feeling without fear of worrying loved ones.

Kindest

GJ

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Has the Citalopram made you put on weight?Most of the drugs we take do this..I can see you have Thyroid problems bless, my friend has that and has put on loads of weight.This in turn understandably makes you depressed..I dont know what they are going to do about my cyst..When I was on the chest ward few weeks back, the Renal specialists came on the ward to see me and said they will be having a meeting and will be in touch.

Its good to chat and being on here its your own little space where you can air your feelings and ask lots of questions, knowing we are all in the same boat..

Keep smiling Laura

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Hi.....a very long time ago I was told of an old fashioned remedy for shingles.

So when I had shingles them a few years ago

( woke up on Christmas morning in agony ) I started to take

Multi B vitamin.just 1 tablet a day. BY the time the scabs had gone....so had the pain.

Maybe it could work for you......perhaps worth thinking about.

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Ohtwo, was the one who suffered shingles...I aws saying my sister had them once ..Sorry for the confusion, but good advice for ppl with shingles ..Kindest regards Laura xx

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Hi.....I was a bit surprised when I saw where my note ended up.

Am using one of these new fangled tablets that seems to have a mind of its own.....

Its chucking it down here......hope weather is better where you are...

Cheers.

Joan .

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Lol at least you know how to use it,I am still "old school" We had cpl heavy showers, I am glad as its taken the muggy air away ...Have a nice day Laura xx

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Hi there bug... Know what you went through lots of pain and sores down one side of the body ..Agony had that 2 years ago. I went to my GP and was give mild pain killers and nothing else, In so much pain ..went to week-end emergency doctor who prescribe the actual drug for shingles ...But it has to be taken on or before the 3rd day or its no use, lucky for me, It was before the 3rd day ....It still went through the same time with sore but slowed down the pain a lot.....WHY did my GP give me this ???? grrrrr

ps Porche296 - could it be as simple as this..............bbc.co.uk/news/business-279...

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I wish,wow what an amazing man!! Its surprising what a bit of money and being able can get you..and of course the incentive to get up and do it..XXXX

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Morning.

I get very depressed, I've had Pneumonia two years running both in June right on my anniversary first time it was 25 years, we spent it standing by the bins at the hospital. I don't know if anyone agrees but I think you can talk yourself into being ill, I've just spent over a week convincing myself I'm going to be ill, anniversary's Friday. And now I don't feel well I've been sick feel more breathless, and yet I've been well for 6 months, and all the good work with the PR and putting on weight has been pointless. So now I'll go into a spiral of depression and when I get down I don't want to be here, rather just throw myself out the nearest window.

I'm a happy little soul.

Kim xxx

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Aww Kimmy,I think illness plays a big part in the depression side of things...I try and be optimistic and then something happens and we are back on the downward spiral..Perhaps you are working yourself up too much worrying and then back in the place we dont want to be...I am here if ever you need to talk,great healer sometimes..Take care sweetie Laura xxxx

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Thanks Laura

I've felt so well, we've been getting out and about and my husband got me some new clothes should have known I would be ill. Trouble is it takes so long to bounce back I really feel I cant keep doing it.

Kim xxx

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Aw Kim its hard sweetheart,it really is.I know exactly how you feel.Nothing interests you any more and life's one big struggle,but you must keep thinking it will change next week ,thats what keeps me going..No two days are the same hunny.

They say a long walk is good for depression,if I could walk I would just do that.Just hold on in there sweetheart and I hope you get some peace of mind.Feel free to chat any time xxxxx

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Thanks.

I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. My husbands fantastic last year he had a heart attack and a triple bypass now he's fighting fit and I envy him, how stupid is that. It was comical really like the blind leading the blind. My only saving grace is my hobby Family History I love it and spend hours engrossed, it really annoys when I haven't got the energy for that.

If we go out I've got a wheelchair if I haven't got the energy to walk, my husband thinks I should get an electric one I would be lethal. People annoy me Laura they have absolutely no concept of how it is for us, I was told it's the equivalent of someone putting a peg on their nose and a straw in their mouth then tell them to walk up stairs.

Kim xxxx

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Its not stupid,its all about having the energy to do things.I got jealous when I saw this woman jogging, and thought how lucky is she ! I too would be lethal in a electric chair..

To get the feeling of some sort is to take a deep breathe in, then try and breathe on top of that! At times I feel I am drowning and have had to hold on bent over something till I can get my breathing back up...

people don't know what's its like until they have the experience of it..I have known normal people in hospital with no lung disease just a chest infection,frightened senseless cause they couldn't breathe.

If only they knew what we have to contend with day in day out take care sweetie keep smiling Laura xxxx

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Its not stupid,its all about having the energy to do things.I got jealous when I saw this woman jogging, and thought how lucky is she ! I too would be lethal in a electric chair..

To get the feeling of some sort is to take a deep breathe in, then try and breathe on top of that! At times I feel I am drowning and have had to hold on bent over something till I can get my breathing back up...

people don't know what's its like until they have the experience of it..I have known normal people in hospital with no lung disease just a chest infection,frightened senseless cause they couldn't breathe.

If only they knew what we have to contend with day in day out take care sweetie keep smiling Laura xxxx

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Bless you

It is horrendous the feeling you might never get your breathe back, and your right we see people and envy them because they can breathe If I sit and daydream its I could run or walk for miles then, now most of the time I've a cannula up my nose.

What part of the country to you live, that can effect our breathing.

Kim xxx

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I am from Somerset ,originally from Wales.I have a little bungalow at the foot of the Quantock hills..There are a lot of beaches and I love the place..

It is scary not being able to get your breathe back,I have been in hospital on numerous occasions and have been told not to leave it too long before ringing..

I hope we have this shower they are talking about on the weather,at least it will clear the air a bit..

Take care laura xx

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I'm from Kent, if we go out it's Whitstable or Broadstairs which are lovely, wish I lived a bungalow.

Kim xxx

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Kent is lovely..I moved to a bungalow as I found the stairs hard..I love it here, I live in between Taunton and Minehead.xxx

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Weird really we've booked a week in August in Somerset, only cost 245.

Kim xxx

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Where to are you staying? Somerset is a beautiful place, I would never go back to Wales..xxx

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I lived in Taunton for a while, many moons ago. Lovely place away from the town.

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Small world eh ? I am in the country ,just love it..x

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I was there in the 90's. I went to Bridgwater College to study horticulture. I was in my early 40's then. :)

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My daughter went there to study art n graphics,..Friendly ppl in Bridgwater.x

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Hi Porche, I have suffered depression for the last 30 years. Well before getting all my ailments. It has completely ruined my life so I know how you feel.

Ohtwo comments have hit the nail on the head because last year, I hit rock bottom. I had one to one counseling then she sent me on a mindfulness course and in a nutshell, I was basically taught to ride with it.

I didn't get it the first few weeks but I still went because it was sooo relaxing. At times I thought, this isn't doing me any good but, I realised, I'm a much calmer person now because they taught me not to fight the awful feelings, but to flow with them. I still had to have have anti -depressants, but the course definitely helped. You don't have to do anything, except sit in a chair.

With everything you have going on, you are bound to be depressed. your physically limited in what you can do to help yourself and that is what is eating at you. you've had several diagnoses thrown at you. It's overwhelmed you. That's why I think a mindfulness course could benefit you too. Once your operation is over and some of your other health issues are dealt with, you will probably feel a bit better anyway. But, this is something you can do in the mean time. your GP should be able to sort it for you.

By the way, I also took up knitting. Lol. It's stopped me stewing on my health problems, helped me stop smoking and surprisingly, gave me a lovely sense of achievement when my Grandson thanked me profusely for his new jumper because I didn't really think he'd wear it being a very trendy 12 year old but we actually thought he might have to have it surgically removed after 3 days. haha.) Problem is, I now have a growing queue of Grandsons and a nephews wanting one too.

Try and find something, anything, you can do Porche that will occupy your mind. It really does help. xxx

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Thank you for the words of encouragement Casper..I have taken up my art again which helps,at least I get to forget things.I often find myself in a room with the curtains closed not to see anyone as just talking sometimes is hard work..I get annoyed at some friends when they say pull yourself out of it,come on lets get out shopping..Hey haven't you forgotten I cant bliming walk far!!

I have slowly let friends slip away for this reason,and I expect you do too.Maybe I will knit them all a jumper lol..

I hate this low mood and know if I was well in myself ,life wouldn't be so bad after all, but illness drags every one down..

I had counselling once and I went with the flow,but she wanted me to have closure on a few issues which helped..

I have a lovely boyfriend of 2yrs,but he is getting more like my carer than anything else,He never complains but at times it irritates me when he says when your better we will do this and that.I don't think he understands I don't want to do things just to be able to breathe and clean my home makes me feel better,as I need to have some sort of organisation around me to keep my head clear.... As for hols and the like I think too much effort, find someone that you can do these things with.Poor guy met me full of beans,and now he has to contend with this!

How are you coping now? apart from making beautiful jumpers! Keep knitting and keep smiling, and thanks for the advice..Laura xxxx

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I was reading through the comments in the hope that I may be able to help. However have just had to run upstairs with tears running down my legs. The quote, I would be lethal in an electric chair, well we all would be, that's what they are designed for :D

Am also about to send hubby up the stairs with a straw in his mouth and a peg on his nose, so thank you so much for brightening my day. Re the depression I have found 25mg Citalopram and 25mg Prednisolone made Dozy a very happy dormouse. D :)

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Love it...lol x

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I'm so happy to brighten your day that's something I suppose, it does read like that. We've got to have something to smile about, your husband probably hates me poor man. I haven't taken anything for depression up to now but it wont be long.

Kim xxx

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Perhaps you need to see your g.p as sometimes anxiety will make you have low mood..My boyfriend just thinks a walk or change of scene , will make the depression go away..I wish bless him...xxx

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Hello Laura, I am really pleased you have fought off that nasty infection and are feeling a bit better though a little bit low. I have had times in my life when I was prescribed anti-depressants, when I was 18 not long after the birth of my son and I had post natal depression and Prozac after my Mum died from Emphysema. It was almost a year later when my brother Frank drowned that I stopped taking them, the day of his funeral to be exact. He never liked the idea of me taking them and a thought came to me that the answer wasn't in a pill and I was right.

The answer is in your own mind and the thoughts that you put there. I know I might sound odd but your thoughts are powerful when you focus on the positives that you have. Every time a 'negative' thought comes to you, replace it with two positive ones.

Your up and coming operation is going to improve your life greatly. You will feel so much better and be able to do so much more! Scientists, Consultants and Doctors and Surgeons have knowledge and expertise like never before, we are living through such exciting times!

You have good times ahead just wait and see! When you go to sleep tell yourself tomorrow is going to be great! When you wake up write a list of all the things you are grateful for and keep up those 'good feeling' thoughts!

I thought this link on anxiety was food for thought. I hope your spirits lift, sending positive thoughts to you and everyone who needs them! love hufferpuffer x

healthcentral.com/anxiety/c...

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What a lovely person you are! Thank you for the kind words of advice..I can see you have had bad times in life and I can relate to that entirely..I lost both my parents at 8yrs, Dad to Emphysema, and mum to Cancer,but I grew up strong and was determined to try and get on with life the best I could..I then lost 3 brothers and a sister at a young age, but kept going.

I have always said once one door closes another opens,but illness is a different "kettle of fish" once your health goes everything seems to be on a downward spiral..

Its strange, but I do try and think positive,and thank my lucky stars for many things.I see ppl fighting for their lives with Cancer and the like,and tell myself pull yourself back up there!!

Reading between the lines,I can see your life hasn't been too good either,I know where your coming from and will take your advice as your words have been a great comfort, and I thank you for that..Laura xx

Anybody with severe lung disease has got plenty of reason to be depressed, in fact it amazes me how well most people here seem to cope. I get very frightened by my increasing levels of breathlessness and constant chest infections. Frightened and depressed. I get depressed at all the things I can't do anymore and frustrated and angry at the lack of good medical care. But I try not to dwell on it and keep on making plans and doing everything I can, when I can. On the days I can't do much, I read spend time online, watch some TV etc. I used to do a lot of writing and am trying to get back to that. And I always hope that things will get better - naive maybe but something I refuse to give up. It's just a day to day thing really but I do try to tell myself that I can choose to be as cheerful as possible and enjoy the pleasurable things in my life or be miserable. Sometimes that works and sometimes it doesn't but it's the best I can do. I really, really hope that you get a date for your op soon and that you have something positive to look forward to. Have you thought of writing a diary or a blog ? Sometimes that's a help at getting stuff out of your head and onto the page. Sending you very best wishes and positive thoughts.

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Thanks for the kind message Argana . have always been an active person, and up until last year the doctors and nurses thought I was amazing.I done pulmonary rehab and every thing by the book..I could't sit still for 2 mins and one day,I had an exacerbation, and I have never been so scared in all my life!!

I always had breathlessness, that got increasingly worse over the years, but this was something different..My lungs went like concrete and I have never been so petrified in all my life..I have had numerous chest infections and was laid up once for 6wks but this didn't faze me in the least.

I have so many exacerbations now, my living room looks like a hospital ward..I would't accept I am disabled and kept trying to do things. I now have to go on nebs before I can even contemplate making a cup of tea as my breathing just goes for no reason! This is what I find so scary, always waiting for it to happen..I take oramorph and lorazapam to keep the anxiety at bay and try and stay calm,I watch films just like you on the bad days and have got back into my art which is quite theraputic.

Its so hard to think last year I was out the garden, planting digging and even washing my car! One day it hit me bad and I have deteriorated since..Next thing I know I had 12 hospital admissions this year alone and have ended up on too many drugs to count and oxygen..

As you can imagine I am devastated,and not one for feeling sorry for myself I kept trying,I know the paramedics by first names..lol My nurses tell me to slow down and take things easier,If I go any slower I will stop lol.

Thanks again for your lovely words,let me know how you are..Keep in touch and any advice gladly accepted ..Kindest Regards Laura xxx

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I don't seem to get depressed. I sometimes get annoyed with my emphysema and swear at it under my breath ( No pun intended ! ). :)

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Its nice to hear that you don't suffer with depression, Usually the two go hand in hand..x

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I consider myself sort of lucky compared to some on here. Although I have been diagnosed with very severe emphysema Stage 4, I do not suffer from any other ailments as such. No Bronchitis either. So that's maybe why it doesn't make me depressed ? I did get down a bit with my recent stay in hospital but recovered, thank goodness.

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You are so lucky! Especially at stage 4.I don't get to chesty only when I have an infection..My lungs are so damaged from smoking years ago I get breathless now just getting up from a chair.I still try and do things until I have to sit down because I get dizzy..

I hope you stay like you are, as mine came on for no reason,one day I had an exacerbation and I got worse by the day..Stay well and keep smiling xx

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I gave up smoking 3 years ago because of angina. About 6 weeks later I found I was gasping for breath doing things I was doing before giving up smoking. It's rather odd going from breathing reasonably ok to gasping for breath within a matter of weeks.

My emphysema hasn't changed since first being diagnosed, thank goodness. All my recent tests are about the same as they were 3 years ago.

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I gave up many moons ago and found I became worse!! My lungs are clear now but the damage to them makes me fight for air...

I hope your tests stay that way, as that at least is good knowing your not deteriorating and staying as you are..

Look after yourself,exercise,eat well and plenty of sleep..Take care Laura xxx

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You take care too ! :) x

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Thanks x

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Sorry that you're going through a tough time Laura and hope things ease for you soon. Just a comment on you saying how you (and Puff) seemed worse after giving up smoking. Well, we know our illness is progressive but I also worsened quite quickly after giving up smoking. That was 6 years ago and I used to think if I had a cig or even an ecig I'd feel less breathless....never did though I'm glad to say. Guess the asthma nurse was right when she said that smoking temporarily opens the airways - this is what we miss, a good old deep breath in.

Hugs from me...Lovelight

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I often wonder if I carried on smoking would I be a lot better than what I am as my lungs have been used to it after all those years..

Exacerbations were enough to scare the living daylights out of me, I am petrified when my breathing goes...Big hugs and take care Laura xxxx

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big hugs I'm taking care gave up smoking 15 years ago got to be better off for it surely

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We would be digging our graves earlier if we still smoked!! I still love the smell of a cigar sometimes,Condooooor lol xxx

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What are you up too lol..I have had loads of msgs from you in my in box! Its so funny to see haha..Think your still trying to find a way around the site..Have a nice evening and keep smiling x

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Bideford, it's just a little studio apartment. I hope I feel ok. xx

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Morning sweatheart. ! So your feeling really down again ....im not surprised. ! I sometimes feel i just want to go back to bed and sleep forever when i,ve just woken up ....what a way to live isnt it !!and if someone could make us breath normally all the other problams would fade away. Wouldnt they ? Its the constant round of appts , meds , nebs , o2. Planning bloody everything ...even going to the loo. !!! And yet you ere strong laura but you can only take so much !!! The anger is another thing isnt it !!! We had only been down here an hour and i nearly hit the car park man. !!luckily for him i hadnt go the breath to get out of the car and go after him ! Then yesterday i had a Barney with a chap in a car ...talk about road rage. ! I hope you soon feeling bit brighter laura. I wish there was something i could do or say but all i can do is send you a message ..so lots of love. Thinking about you. XzXX. Sue

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What are you like lol?Nearly hitting some man and road raging..My goodness you were in need of a holiday haha..Have a fantastic time,dont get out of breath , you need it for your vows ..xxx

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Bill allways says for someone who cant breathe. I can usually find enough for a row. !!!!!

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Haha, doc said for some one who can't breathe I can talk a lot lol ..Usually the steroids though.x

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If they cant explain it ...blame it on the steroids. !!! I just seen thhat someone suggested putting down on paper in the morning all the posative thiings in your life .. i started a "happy jar " every day put a piece of paper in with something on it that made you smile ...sun shining, bulbs coming up etc ...then one day couldnt get the lid off ...guess what happened after that ...dustpan and brush required and glass every where. !!! Amazing how far broken glass goes ....sue x

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Haha, really good idea though!! xxx

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sue tut tut that's not good for you all that pent up anger lol ....and with a name like SUE be careful you don't swing out and get SUED ....LOL need karma or something and a great evening out preferably romantic all the very best ...b good xx

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Oxytic you sent me Sues message hun..Confused me a bit lol...Have a nice evening take care Laura x

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oops don't know Where I am on this new site ...getting confused with messaging sorry x

Bideford, is lovely about hour and half from where I live..I live in a small bungalow,ideal for my needs and the gardens pretty and private....Take care Laura xx

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porche Hello are you still here or have you gone ?.

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Porch Oh no you got me fancying a cigar now ...oo.oo.gota ava cigar LOL

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Hello once again .hi ..there are some good sites to visit that may offer some remedies' for your problems, Curezone And there is this Earthclinic . and Http://earthclinic.com ?

/remedies/hydrogen peroxide inhalation. I am at the moment going through a detox program with bicarbonate of soda ....When I finish this course .I will defiantly go on this hydrogen peroxide inhalation program ...

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yes I know still c ant work how to click on someone to private message boo hoo :(

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I have had another load of msgs from you in my inbox..You only have to click on reply once lol..x

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Am I answering your "Depression a pain " 8 minuetes ago ?

I posted that 2 days ago,You are funny Eric, at least you make me laugh..Just taking all my drugs so will be in the land of fairies soon...Have a nice evening Laura...

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Hi there laura ...hw are you feeling. ? Hope you are ok ! Have you heard anything regardiing your surgery yet ! Wish they,d get a move on for you every day such a struggle for you ..not fair is it. !! I sometimes. Think no matter how good the medical and surgical teams are they really dont know what an effect this has on all aspects of your life ! The weather here in dorset is lovely not don much just sat outside ,but done plenty of people watching. And lovely view. Of the sea we got some friends staying 3 c vans along ..from birmingham. We met them here 5 years ago and allways meet up here same weeks and also when i go b ham hosp. They have decided to come back next tues , wed thurs for wnen we do vows ...so thats nice isnt it especially as we met them here ! Richard and grandson coming too so be nice . Think i told u all this before. But never mind eh. ! Right im going have a cuppa then off to bed , late for me. Night n bless laura lots of love. Sue. Xx

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Hiya Sue,so glad your having a lovely time..I saw my g.p yesterday and he is waiting to hear from Bromptom as well..He kept saying how strong I am and I am doing well,but I felt like screaming, I am crumbling bit by bit!!I just woke up 3.30 as my breathing went down in my sleep so I am sat here cannula up my nose and ventolin and atrovent in nebs..A swig Oramorph and I should be ok..ish

Anyway how lovely to see your friends again! Thats so nice that they are coming back for your vows,they seem really lovely people...

glad your enjoying yourself,and the weather is being kind..That makes all the difference..Thinking of you Laura xx

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Hiya laura , just come in for neb..so tht just send you guick message. ! Right ...how r you feelig. Still as poorly. .? No news re surgery yet ?? It ok your doc saying you strong woman ...you b |@@(y have to be dont you ? They dont see you every waking and sleeping moment !! Bet you if you week willed week minded alcoholic who needed new liver you,d have had surgery ages ago !!!!!! Nuff said or i start a rant ! We just going into West Bay where they filmed Broadchurch. For ice cream ...want one ? With or without flake. ? Its only about 2 miles away so ok when you need emergency ice cream. ! I hope you,r ok as can be ..thinkin abt you lots of lov ....sue. x

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Hiya Sue,I am not too bad today sweetie, I went to Minehead with my boyfriend and had spotted dick n custard(say no more) we then ventured to williton to a fete and although I walk like a snail he has all the patience in the world bless..I had an ice cream so there lol.

We came home and I fell asleep for two hours on the bleeding sofa, what good company am I lol.He understood though and because it took all my energy I think I went in a coma lol.

I can see your having a lovely time, I hope the showers are staying away from you..Take care lots of love Laura xxxx

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Hi again , glad you managed to get out today ,even if it did bugger yoh up , you must feel as if you climbed mount everest. !! There is a fantastic street market in Bridport on a saturday and i really wanted to go ...they sell all sorts of hippy dippy clothes jewlry etc ..so off we set. Managed park car in main street ,struggled to first bench . That was it !!sue was over ambitious again ..i then resorted to neb ice cream and people watching ....again ..oh well. Bill had wander about , but sometimes doesnt it upset you, make you jealous , then angry. !! Well good job near ice cream man. !! Right thats enough of me moaning for today. .i put my posative head on have sleep and tomorro another day ! The sunset is beautiful at the moment ther a lovely pink sky .. looks like another nice day tomorro .. i say nite n bless sleep well lots of love. Sue. XXX

I enjoyed having a bit of freedom, rather than looking at these four walls..People tell me take up hobby ,but in all honesty I haven't the patience when I cant breathe..I feel absolutely shattered but good in the knowledge I actually left the house for the first time in weeks!

I love street markets,there is a good one in Exeter that does allsorts!

I could fall asleep on a chickens lip now,so I will bid you goodnight..I am glad your having a lovely time.lots of love laura xxx

Aww bless Squady,you are suffering big time,.The pain in your spine must be awful.My heart goes out to you as there is nothing worse than pain..I am here if ever you need to chat.Hugs Laura xxxx

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