I haven't been on line much recently and that is because my husband Phil died in September. We had only been together for 8 years and married for 4 and I knew he was ill when we married but we were very happy together.
Phil got his wish and died peacefully at home surrounded by his children, brothers, loyal Jack Russell called Jack, and me. This was made possible by the care and support we received from his fabulous doctor and the Iain Rennie hospice at home nurses, although they were only involved for the last few days of his life, without whom he would have suffered. They were there whenever we needed them whatever the time of day or night and always treated him with dignity and were very supportive to myself and his family.
Phil lived his life to the full even at the end. The day before he died the house was filled with laughter as all the family had arrived from all over the UK and the brothers were teasing each other and the rest of the family. Mind you the kids did their fair share as well. We all had fish and chips for supper as I did not have enough foot in the house to feed them all and Phil even had a glass or two of Guinness' At 7:45am the next morning he slipped away. Everybody responded to the 5am call to return to the house and everybody got there in time. I am sure Phil hung on until his little brother arrived.
His funeral was a humanist one and was a celebration of his life rather than anything else and even Jack attended. Afterwards we all went to the pub where he spent so much of his time until he could no longer make it up the steps into the bar and where we meet.
The house is very quiet without him. No TV on 24/7 and no oxygen concentrator working in the hallway and no trailing oxygen tube to trip me up.
The last 6 months have been difficult but I have got through them and it is true time is a great healer. Having said all that I think about Phil every day and it is amazing how often I find tears streaming down my face as I go round the M25 on my way to work.
I can not thank my employers and my fellow workers enough for all the support they gave me when Phil was ill and after his death. They have been great. Allowing me to work from home when Phil wasn't well enough for me to leave him.