After all the special efforts from Fran and Mark who helped me get back to work I feel my selfishness over the last 4 weeks has nearly drained all my strength and my willpower and I was hurting the two people I love most in the whole world, And all this is due to my RA constantly attacking me mostly my wrists and hands, also getting up at 4 in the morning just to get myself mobile before Fran gets up to dress me but most of the times she was up at the same time and then she was on the go all day with her job then looking after me when I got home.
Then Mark would come straight from nightshift to drive me to work and the times he would say lets go home Dad because he could see the pain I was In even he had tears in his eyes and this is when I felt I was being selfish and stubborn and only once did Fran say don’t go and this was because I was sitting crying she knew how much it meant to me to go to work, And the great thing all through this I have not had one problem with my lungs. The way things are going with my Lungs I can see the transplant being put on hold again and praying Tony Dall05 gets taken of the transplant list.
I told Fran and Mark from the day I decided to got back to work and it was not just to prove a point about getting there I want to stay at work as long as possible, we all know I am going to be housebound in the near future so I will plan my next ventures and not to sit and wait for the big man in the sky to shout Ok Mattcass you have fought a long hard fight and now it’s time for a nice long rest, Oh God where’s he away to Now’ between him and Tony Dall05 they don’t make things easy for me, Oh well I can wait and I will l get them sometime. MATTCASS