I have had the results of my brothers post mortem, he died of ischaemic Heart Disease, which was more a result of his diet and smoking, than his alcoholic lifestyle. Please anyone out there who still smokes, please try to stop, it has the biggest chance of killing than anything else.. I have severe cpod through smoking and have to learn the lesson the hard way. The funeral is next week and I am finding this hard as I have had to organise this on my own. I still have not come to terms with never seeing and talking to my brother ever again.. My husband is still very unsupportive and I have suggested he doesn't come to the funeral, which was met with a very aggressive response.. All his aggression to me is our past life is my fault for apparently upsetting him. I don't know why he wants to come to the funeral when he openly hated my brother, and could never be civil to him. I feel a mess at the moment and very stressed and am struggling to breathe, which I feel could be stress related.
Love Viv xxxx