As you all know my husband was rushed into hospital on Friday night because he could not breath(COPD/Bronchiectasis), he has once again contracted the nasty little bug Pseudomonus that lives in the lungs and keeps rearing it's ugly head. l have been really poorly since the day he went in, not being able to visit him. He was told by the specialist they were keeping him in until the end of this week at the earliest to make sure the antibiotics he was getting through his IV had cleared everything up. I was grateful for that as I honestly could not have coped with him at home and I am now on antibiotics and steroids (Asthma and chest infection), and could not face making him meals and running up and down after him.
Yesterday I got a call to say he was coming home, I could have wept, I could hardly get myself out of bed but I did, when I got to the hospital I found out that he had been pestering to go home and they said he could if he took his antibiotics and steroids I told them I was so poorly I could not look after him, they told me that he had talked about signing himself out if he wasn't released. I was absolutely incensed with him.
From 6 o'clock last night, when we walked through the front door he started being ill, couldn't breathe. shouting at me to get this and get that, he had his concentrator canulas up his nose, he was using his oxygen cylinder mask all at the same time, he wanted his nebuliser on. I had to set the mobility scooter up so he could drive it through the house instead of walking, he was using oxygen cylinders up like there was no tomorrow turning them up to 4 and 5, he wouldn't listen to me at all. I was back and forwards carrying the cylinders, taking them off putting them on.
I had to sleep at the bottom of the bed as he wanted space to spread out and I was awake all night. I haven't been to see him this morning as I can't face it. I still feel terrible, I am sat here crying as I know I have another day of fetching and carrying in front of me.
Why on earth don't the hospital staff ensure he has someone to look after him before sending him home, they should ask the people concerned not him as he is so selfish all he thinks about is himself.
When he refused the ambulance last night, and was carrying on, I thought sod him if he dies, he dies I have got past caring. In fact I hoped he would die as I can't take anymore.