I had some sad/happy news this morning. I have no doubt that I sound like a fruit cake and I don't understand it myself.
Someone I never met died in her sleep last night. She was the (ex) mother-in-law of my best friend, she was a few days short of 90 years and was diagnosed with stomach cancer a few days ago.
Although i never met her, I have been hearing about her for about 40 years and her death has affected me quite a bit.
The sadness comes from knowing that her children and grandchildren have lost someone they care greatly about. The happiness comes from knowing that she died peacefully in her sleep - no pain and no fear. From what I have heard she had had enough and wanted to go.
Yesterday, I felt so good - I still feel good today but it is touched by a bit of sadness.
How on earth can I grieve for someone I never met?