Hope & Relief

Hi Guys,

Havent posted for a fair while, but have kept fully up to date. Life went downhill for a while, My last post was asking about Nick Hopkinson, Lung specialist at Royal Brompton. I had 2 appointments with him, after 2 very detailed LF test days, shuttles etc. The whole idea was for him to ascertain if lung reduction would be useful, and if I was able to have the surgery. Hence the reason for my quietness, I was kinda told point blank that because my lungs are damaged through all the sections, with not one area being clean of emphysema.

He wasnt able to offer me any help, and to my question 'Im done then?' He shook my hand and said best we can do is keep my pain under control and try and keep a decent lifestyle. Came as quite a shock, and basically knocked me off my stride for 2-3 months, I basically went into my shell feeling sorry for myself. The letters and results kept flooding in, specialist reports, Drs letters etc, each full of gloom and each without any helpful ideas. BODE of 10 is fairly final I guess, with my FEV1 or 21% says it all.

Added to that I had the usual benefits hardships, my latest being told that incapacity benefit was changing, and I had to apply again, through ATOS..New 'assessment For Work' for Incapacity benefit. Had to go through a Dr interview 50 miles from home, and all advisers being bleak, it looked for a second that even though I cant stand up, I would be eligible to work...how horrid that felt, and how wrong is it that this should be allowed to happen. I went deeper into despair, thinking the worst.This post is to try and give hope to anyone worrying, or feeling down.

Ok, so, Hope? Yes hope, and relief, Well relief comes in a phone call from ATOS saying that they have gone through my medical reports, and my form, and they were pleased to tell me I wouldn't need an interview or medical and everything was finished, I was not able to work, exact words being 'To set your mind at rest' I was assessed as unable to work

However I would submit that why, after going through all this forms etc with ATOS, quite why in a year or so's time I need to go through it all again for assessment for the new PiP is beyond me, surely if they find me unable to work now due to terminal illness NOW, in an assessment for the new incapacity benefit 'Name of the year', in 12 mths it can only be the same or worse. Quite why they force me to go trough the same test over and over again is beyond me. It feels more and more like the right hand not knowing what the right hand is doing, let alone the left one. However I digress:)

Hope? Its spring, sun shining, my dogs coat is shiny and lovely, and my partner is happy.

Just trying to say, however bleak things seem, there is always some hope and joy left, keep smiling, try and keep happy. Dont stress out and worry too much about benefit changes. If you are eligible, you will be looked after.

If you need an ear, the helpline is so so caring and helpful, and the community here so nice...

Thanks guys, just wanted to say hi again, and thanks for all the help you have been.

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  • Hi catel, we,ve never met, but I want to thank you for this post, I was moved to tears by your description of your journey, & amazed you found hope in what you found with our so called support welfare system,

    I hope the rest of your life is filled with peace & joy in the simple thing of life that as you show are so important

    god bless you both

    Karen xxx

  • Hi Catel, and thank you so much for your inspiring post.

    This is how the light in mankind shines - unbelievable spirit.

    The very best of luck man, and thank you once again,

    Chris

  • Settle down for a good laugh now

    Richard

    Read the KOTC humour show

    Your daily tonic

  • Hi Catel

    I have never met or spoken to you but I am proud to have met you through your blog. Your strength of character and your sheer guts shine through and make me feel quite humble. My very best wishes for the future. Bob

  • Hi Catel. Nice to see you again. That is so positive but what a journey eh?

    Keep in touch with us, I'm afraid quite a few old time regulars don't seem to be on here much, but hopefully, they will see this.

    Lynne xx

  • You are one brave man mate,,wishing you much joy in your time left,,and hoping its a lot longer than you think.. :)

  • Good to hear from you again and also great that you can still find positive things amongst some of the pretty awful stuff you have been going through. Do your best to keep smiling. :-) X

  • Hi

    I can't say I know how you feel about anything you have posted about because I can't and I would not insult you by pretending

    BUT

    I just love your positivity and hope some of that may rub off on me although I do try to keep cheerful but when I read posts like yours I know I have nothing to complain about

    THANK YOU

    Janet

    xxx

  • It's no wonder you've been knocked off your stride but it is just amazing that you've made it out of that shell this quickly and posted so frankly - R E S P E C T! (and a big hug for you all).

  • Im totally amazed by the kind words and sentiments.This community is the best tonic for anyone with some problems however small or worrying. There is nothing I can say, apart from thank you for reading and thank you for understanding. I feel quite humbled by the comments above, but if we can make someoone smile once, or cheer up, or offer some relief from the greyness,then hey then life is ok isnt it:)

    Thank you.

  • Evening Catel

    Good to see you and read your update, my heart goes out to you but you are an insparition. Keep going and never give up.

    David 1968

  • Big hug to you Catel,I was wondering if you had left.So good to hear from you,I do admire your courage.We will be thinking of you, please keep in touch,from time to time,

    Love Wendells xxx

  • X

  • Hello Catel, it's good to hear how you are doing, hope you and your lovely lass are enjoying a nice bit of warmth from the sun,hugs Carol x

  • Good post Catel and hope things are on the up for you now. Good luck to you. xxx

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