Did you discover something about yourself since your loss?

[chloe40]

Maybe you found you are stronger than you think or perhaps discovered a hidden passion that was buried?

Love to hear from you

Chloe <3

[Caza]

I guess yes, incredibly strong. I never thought for one minute that I would survive the loss of one of the greatest gifts I ever had my daughter. I realised that I had 3 choices 1/ to follow her which would of caused way too much pain for my family & close friends. 2/ self destruct, so very easy to do but so very hard once again for family & friends & 3/ to try to continue in the hope that you’ll make life easier for family & friends & maybe eventually for yourself. So what have I found, incredibly strong with brilliant acting skills.

I think I was a much nicer person before more genuine.

What about you Chloe ?

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Caza]

You're so very brave and strong Caza as others here, and I know I shouldn't be but I am envious that you have made so much progress and have been so sensible in your thinking. You have made as happy a life as you can and I'm proud of you!

Me, I seem to take one step forward and two back, nothing seems to drive me anymore and I find it so hard to smile and laugh, almost as if I don't feel these emotions anymore.

Sending love

Chloe <3

[Caza in reply to chloe40]

Thank you Chloe, that brought a tear to my eye. I know exactly where your coming from when you say you don’t feel the emotions.

That’s when I fake it & sometimes it makes me feel better knowing I’ve made someone else feel better laughing at their jokes or admiring an outfit etc,,, general chit-chat. I do make sure that I get quite times to myself.

That’s grief for you one step forward & two steps back. I still get times when I’m back to day one, I’ll allow myself that day & start again tomorrow.

Take care big hugs & thank you x

[chloe40 Administrator]

Wise words for sure <3