Depression after losing mum

[Arniestal]

Just been to doctor, I've been on sertraline for few weeks he's put me back on citlopram. I don't know what happened lost mu. 2 years ago, tremendous grief, overwhelming. But last October was able to get on with some things. Then about 3 months ago went down black hole, depression really bad. Nothing happened only thing I can think of is that I fully realised how much I had lost. Anyone else had this?

[kenster1 Volunteer]

hi I am so sorry to hear of your loss and suffering.yeah I recently felt this way with my dad who passed last easter sunday.i was working at the time and had to work through a breakdown.it was only after we got his name put on the headstone after a few months that it actually hit me.i am still waiting on counselling and on a waiting list so who knows when I will be seen.have you contacted anyone yet regards counselling.if you have family or even a close friend they could support you along with counselling.

[Arniestal in reply to kenster1]

Thanks for reply, I mainly feel this is something I've got to get through myself. It's very difficult to get to see counselling isn't it. I've been to see a bereavement councillor a couple of times. As it's been two years I feel bad talking to friends still about it. Hopefully new tablets will get me through some.

I know what you mean about seeing the name on something when funeral was being booked and saw the name on paperwork I thought I must be in some sort of nightmare. I hope you get some help.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hi Arniestal

This isn't uncommon and many of us have found that just as we think we're 'getting there' we find ourselves plunged into a black hole. I think you have answered yourself here, reality has dawned and with it the pain all over again {{{hugs}}} really so sorry to read this but feeling confident the medication will help you, and the support of people around you as well as our members here <3

Chloe x

[Arniestal in reply to chloe40]

Thank you, its good to have somewhere to talk.

[snflwrgrl]

I took care of my mom for eight years before she passed away six years ago. We were very close and I loved her so much. When she passed away I felt a huge hole. I went to GriefShare. Have you ever heard of it? There I met other women who were going through the same emotions I was and I no longer felt so alone. It also gave me the tools I needed to start the healing process. I still think about her everyday and I miss her but it does get better. Don’t lose hope. Maybe GriefShare can help you too. It’s offered nationwide so there’s a good chance there’s one in your area. I hope you will consider it. Big hug!

[Arniestal]

Thank you, I'm in UK and not heard of grief share. I would definitely go if it was available.

[snflwrgrl]

I think all the GriefShare videos are online too. I hope that helps. Hugs!

[Arniestal]

I didn't know that, thank you.