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Hello!

I think this would be my second post here, my anxiety and the panic attacks have returned in an exaggerated way, (as the doctors say my accident has exacerbated a lot in them), after suffering the accident I began to lose hearing bilaterally , it means that I suffer from severe hearing loss, that increases it too much, of all that chronic pain has derived in my right ear, we already tried morphine, carbamezapine, and now I am currently in methadone, yes, sweet party, also my therapists should give therapy to posttraumatic disorder, my life is going free fall and I can not climb, I'm going to a terrible place, I've seen three people go there and never come back, that's why they treat me with clonazepam, hydroxyzine, venlafaxine, propranolol, too I leave the flouxetina, I always go to the therapies but I feel that I advance three steps and I retreated thirty, seriously the same thing happens to other people, or is it just me?

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Caza

I can’t offer you advice but I can send you a hug 🤗

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Ezrah in reply to Caza

thanks

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Nathalie99

Hi Ezrah,

Does your therapist do grounding techniques with you during therapy?

These are techniques to bring yourself to the present moment and especially important while suffering from trauna.

It is important to do the therapy from the place of safety in the here & now.

Also, just practising those selected techniques every day several times, you help create a sense of safety a little bit and that's very important.

If your panic attacks are getting worse, you might need to talk to your doctor about your medications because maybe they are not effective anymore or not enough.

With therapy it often gets worse before it gets better but if you feel worse, you need to speak to your doctor immediately.

It is really a lot to go through and remember to be compassionate and patient with yourself.

Take care...

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Ezrah in reply to Nathalie99

Thanks, My therapist does it, I know it sounds silly, but in those moments in therapy, it is how to return at the exact moment of my accident (sometimes we worked eight years ago, in others last year) both have been together in this Last time, so she does as much as she can, now my medications changed, for the same reason, they were not working for me anymore.

I'm not a good person with myself, I think the worst words I've told myself, that's why we also work that part since everything is complete.

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Nathalie99 in reply to Ezrah

Hi Caroline,

Healing from trauma is really complicated and it's different for everyone.

I am not sure wherer you mean you have symptoms of dissociation or DID (parts) or just having difficulty connecting to the memories.

Sometimes connecting can be really difficult and maybe a gentle approach could help with reducing the anxiety/panic.

Being good with yourself and taking care of your needs is really important, when you are able to do it.

Think about how you would care about your best friend if they needed support, how much support and compassion you would give them. You deserve the best from yourself too.

Pushing yourself isn't always the best, it depends on your individual situation and approach to therapy might change overtime.

It takes time but it is worth it to be able to experience less symptoms start a new life again...

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Ezrah in reply to Nathalie99

Hi Nathalie

yes, the progress for everyone is very different, I understand, what I have wanted to say, is that it works on a first trauma so that I can improve and be able to advance to the next, that my mind understands that they are two different events, not one , as lately has happened to me, she works my previous trauma and makes reference of how, and why I have associated both traumas, but making a difference in that at this moment is different from 8 years ago, my now is very different from my past , but I need to advance in some really, I need it.

They assume that as the operations go forward, and I can see improvements in this trauma in my body, I may be able to back off my symptoms a little and work on the rest without much medication.

I think part of that is the bad thing about myself, that I see my friends, family and I want to help them, but I am one of those people who do not know how to express things, now my Mother is fighting to beat cancer, I always want to be for She, but I do not know how she can be for me, I do not know if you can understand me?

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but when we advance one, I feel that I go back four, one of the symptoms I got because of my accident, almost always precedes the pain, but this weekend was much better, a scar more to my collection, my right ear bled again, and I relived the previous accident, ambulances, lights, new faces in emergencies, I did not see my Doctor anywhere, he gave me a bit of both, they left me in observation from Saturday morning, until a couple of hours ago, my body feels too tired, but I can not sleep , I do not know, it is tired but not of dream, but the valium does its job at this moment ...

I hope to be back here soon and with better news.

Thanks... and I also hope to start to really live, and not survive.

The good thing is, it seems like your problems are all confined to your head. Does that sound right?

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Yes, the attacks of panic and anxiety come from our head, I know I will not die for it, although it seems the opposite (as my therapists would say "Caroline people do not die from this type of attack, although it seems the opposite, so the day that you die by an attack you will make us famous "lol) but the pain itself is physical, it is what makes my situation worse.

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I get it.

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