I also have depression which is clinical because I feel that I am slow and stupid. Can you believe that my mother is a teacher? I feel that my ugliness, low self esteem, shyness, and innocence is something that she didn't help work with but she worked against that she saved better in my 2 youngest sisters....I think that she secretly worked behind me to help them succeed. I know that. But. As I think about my sisters upbringing, it worked against myself which she disciplined me. I rebelled especially she didn't help me deal with the childhood sexual molestation. I find it hard to concentrate in school that I am now disabled with mental illnesses. Yet it is me that I fight for my life......I find a special guy, calling career, Recoveries, and Myself in all this...Can you believe that? I have my mother and sisters speechless!!! I worked on my self that getting sick is a blessing that they put me into because I empowered and became a stronger woman.....I have dreams that I want to tell you is possible if you believe in yourself. As I write this, it helps me to overcome the pain that is in my past that I learn to take care of myself........plus I have to be careful....to go where I stopped with my grandparents. Sure this could sound unbelievable but I worked and I continue to work to better myself...........................Thank you.