Today I had an appointment with my asthma nurse. I’ve already had a few appointments with her this year due to inhalers changing etc but today was for a check up because I’ve been trying to stop a flare from flaring (if that makes sense?)
Anyway, I have a great relationship with my asthma nurse (she’s amazing) and she always commends me on how I do everything by the book and how I project manage my asthma. I’ve been flaring like crazy for a few months, have had 3 or 4 courses of pred and I’m still getting breathless pretty often- 61 puffs of salbutamol in 2 weeks.
For the first time ever today, I felt really vulnerable when she said to me “you’ve become too brittle for me to manage and I’m really worried.” She’s booked me in to see my GP first thing in the morning and is going to get my referral to the asthma specialists expedited.
I guess my downfall is my reliance and how I’ve just become used to being breathless. I also hate to make a fuss because I know there are people out there much worse off than I am. I’m not sure whether I’ve been too relaxed about my asthma but I’m feeling pretty stupid right now and a little confused.