Okay so here is my story.
I was diagnosed as asthmatic as a young child (long family history of asthma, plus several bronchitis infections in first 2 years) and was on inhalers up until I was 19 when I stopped using them with advice from my GP as I was symptom free. I have remained pretty much symptom free for the last 10 years (occasionally borrowed mum's reliever if things got a little tight and it always helped).
At Christmas 2015 I got that horrible flu-like virus which knocked me for six. After two months of struggling with a cough and wheeze I went to the docs who said it was infection and asthma. I had antibiotics and started on my inhalers again.
Since that time I've struggled and had episodes of severe coughing which left me gasping for breathe. I agreed to go back to the doctors and he said I had gone from a stage 0 symptom free asthmatic to a stage 5 severe asthmatic in four months. He wanted me to go to hospital but I asked if I could be treated at home I would prefer it. He reluctantly agreed but with strict instructions for me to go to hospital if I worsened at all.
I ended up in hospital the following day and ended up staying in two nights. Fortunately I responded after a couple of hours of intense treatment and was allowed home after confirming my lungs were functioning at 75%, which the consultant was happy with.
I've been home a couple of weeks now and I'm still on high dose steriods, inhalers, etc. My peak flow varies from 300 too 400, (used to be 400 or above).
My problem is I feel like a fraud at the moment. When I was in hospital I can acknowledge I was very poorly and you could hear the wheeze etc see it all in my obs. However now I am home I still have chest tightness and shortness of breathe on doing any activity but no wheeze. My family keep saying they want me to go back to hospital but I don't want to be told there is nothing wrong / they can do and feel even more like a fraud and have wasted precious resources.
I'm due to see my doctor tomorrow for post-discharge check-up.
Does anyone else feel this way? What helps you get over these feelings?