I'm Sharnee 22 and a sufferer of chronic asthma as you all must know winter is HORRIBLE. I constantly have to battle loving Christmas and it's festivities but hating the weather it brings with it. I have always made sure to keep my asthma quiet because of the fear I will get the comment "I have asthma, I have had to have the brown one have you" YES! YES! YES! The brown inhaler is a thing long in the past. Today I had a breakdown when going for my monthly injection, where my nurse told me about this forum. I feel like giving up with all the medication and letting my asthma win because although as we know its not a physical disability I feel so disabled. Being 22 and not being about to walk up the stairs to work, step outside for too long or laugh with friends without having to reach for my Ventolin is restricting and upsetting. Having 2 hours a sleep a night because I wake up choking on my phlegm, or waking up shakey because of the amount of puffs I have used in the night. I feel drained, sad and defeated and very very low. I'm better than this and I am better than my asthma and I just want it to get better. Just seeing some of these post I am reminded I am not alone. Although I have been told I have got chronic asthma I have heard over the last 4 months "Brittle asthma" coming up alot and would like to know more because alot of the time I don't chronic asthma can cut it.