I was diagnosed with brittle asthma about seven years ago and it feels like the resp team don't give a toss. I have two arrests one respiratory the other cardio respiratory numerous hospital stays tried various drugs, I am being considered for xolair again but the last time my IeG levels were too high so I can not see them being any different. I keep asking about subcut and they always trial something else. Fed up!
It is starting to effect my mental health, last time I woke woke up in ITU (7/8) I had a go at the nurse for keeping me alive. I had accepted during the attack I was going to die and was so annoyed to wake up. I feel totally isolated and lonely. I have put on 4 stone since October and am due to get married this October and the weight from the pred is piling on I wont fit in my dress.
I feel totally abandoned by friends because I can not do what they do and I can't sit in their houses because they all smoke. I have just had enough.