Well, I saw my consultant again today (sort of my consultant, he deals with inpatients and this was my 2nd outpatient with him, but going back to my usual one next week). Overall the appointment was pretty good. I was worried that he would either a) readmit me as Im not wonderful thanks to the pollen and heat, or b) want to reduce the pred again - he seems determined to do it far faster than I am happy with. In the end neither happened and I didn't even have to argue with him!!
The next steps at the moment seem to be a metal wire up my nose and into the top of my stomach to test for silent reflux, sputum induction and possibly a bronchoscopy which I am not over keen on - especially after he told me its dangerous to do it to asthmatics! He said again that my asthma behaves in a way that is far more common in young children, that its reactive and spasmodic leading to the sudden severe attacks I am having whenever I come into contact with a trigger - hot drinks, cold drinks, pollen, perfume, you name it. He says there is almost certainly the more common inflammation side too, but the steroids are hiding that and I am not stable enough to be off them for them to test for the inflammation etc etc. For the same reason, blood tests for allergies are coming back negative even though I KNOW I am reacting! I am too unstable to come off the antihistamines for skin tests at present too so they are on hold.
My blood sugar tests from last week were okay - both the one for that moment and the longer term one - so I just need to be careful with what I eat, its definitely prediabetes not, as he feared, that I am already diabetic.
I then told him that I had been highly offended and very cross with his comment last week that suicide isn't illegal. I told him I thought it highly inappropriate that he should say that to any patient, and that had I been emotionally unstable, or even just totally overwhelmed with my asthma and having a wobbly moment, it could have had very serious consequences. He apologised, and said that he considered me to be extremely strong and had no concerns about my mental state, and if he had been worried he would not have said what he said, and in the past he has actually had a patient sectioned as he feared they were at risk of harming themselves. I am not 100% happy with his explanation but do feel better about the situation than I did before. Next week I go back to my usual outpatient consultant (Im on weekly appointments for the moment until I am more stable) but would be willing to see him again in an emergency - and would have to if I was readmitted.