Not much asthma related but really need a rant.
Asthma has been acting up today. Seems to be the cumulation of various triggers that seemed ok at the time but by evening lungs are defo complaining.
Just feeling so down about everything. Some days life seems doable and then some days i still end up thinking how the hell did i end up like this?...
For several months now various cons have been playing games with my meds for want of a better description. Especially steroids. Lung dermo internaledicine and renal all jave different agendas so it goes up and down several times a month. The stupidest thing. They are discussing possibly having another multi disciplinary about me. So now i again get to insist that i would like the hospital chaplain to attend. Theoretically this is allowed but i dont think many people take up on the offer. I just feel he knows ke best and knows all of me and wants the est for all of me etc.
When i was studying for A pevel equivalents I said to ky teacher i was only doing it cuz there was a small chance i would survive ky spinal op. Still doing it 4 years later. Thats pretty much why o got kicked out of uni though of course they never admit it. The government qont pay for ke to study when docs dont reckon ill live to complete a degree.
Sorry really bad and pointless rant.