For some reason I've developed a daft dislike of using my inhaler at work. At my previous school I used to manage to take it quietly when there was no one around - wouldn't use it during lessons but could take it at breaktimes and if I needed it more than that wouldn't have been fit to stay at work anyway.
At my new school there are children in my room at lunchtime and wherever I stand in my room if someone walked past the door they would see me. I would feel ridiculous taking my inhaler somewhere like the toilet or my car to use.
If it was really getting serious I would just use the inhaler anyway, but I'm aware that it's stupid to leave it until it gets really bad. I also know that it will make my breathing worse if I ignore symptoms and allow them to continue, but just don't seem to be able to get past this fear of people seeing me using my inhaler. It isn't because I'm ashamed of being asthmatic as I think most people at work know that and I have spoken openly about it previously.
Any suggestions about how I can get past this?
Also I seem to be going through an annoying patch where I'm waking up 2-3 times a week during the night, but otherwise symptoms aren't that bad and are variable - some days ventolin several times a day but some days not at all. I know that if I saw my asthma nurse he would probably give me pred, but I really don't want it unless I need it and I'm not going downhill at the moment, more hovering around the line of controlled/not controlled.
However, I'm finding the tiredness tricky and worrying about whether I'm coming down with something or going to deteriorate is bothering me. Unsure why as I've been much worse than this and dealt with it but not sure what I can do about it.
My great GP isn't around at the moment otherwise I would go and see her for a chat about options, but don't think I can face trying to explain things to a different doctor for them to either say increase preventer or give me pred.
Sorry for long post, obviously needed to get that off my chest!