I feel like I'm bashing my head against a brick wall.
I have bipolar disorder, and for around a year now I've been in an acute depressive episode. During this time, I've been back and forward to the GP, who will not review my meds (I don't know many GPs who would play around with a manic depressive's meds). She has tried 3 times to refer me to psychiatry, who, 3 times, have rejected the referral. Apparently, since I am not psychotic or on the verge of hospitalisation, it's not worth them seeing me (is it just me, or is this a bit of a stupid way of going about things - wait until things have escalated to hospital treatment is needed before helping?).
My GP then tried referring me to the PCT's mental health team, who have told her that their waiting lists are too long, so they are not accepting referrals!
So I'm being passed between primary and secondary services, none of whom will see me. My GP is currently my mental health support, and while she is very good, that is not what a GP is there for.
During this year, I have gone from holding down a full time job to struggling to work 10 hours per week. There's no 2 ways about it, we need me to work and in the long term, to be working more than 10 hours. My moods and ability to cope with life are erratic to say the least, and the services that are there to support and treat me just don't give a damn.
I attend a women's centre and one of their workers is trying to help me find some help somewhere, but it's doing my head in, and in my darker moments makes me feel pretty hopeless and worthless. And worse.
Sorry for the moaning, I just needed to get it out, and I thought people here might understand about NHS problems in general.