so today i saw the cons who specialises in just the vocal cords. she said that she couldnt see any obvious problem, and that she therefore concluded it was psychological. i am however going to start vocal rehabilitation, and go back to see her at the therapists discretion.
this is problematic with me for two reasons. first, the various cons are agreed that theyre sure i have Wegener's vasculitis, and its now just a case of waiting for confirmation from a biopsy or bloodtest before starting chemo (this could take another 7 years yet!) and Wegeners is known to cause problems in the throat etc, so could the docs be missing something? i am rather sceptical, since i went for years accumulating serious and rare health problems (kidneys, heart, stroke, intestines, lungs, nose, skin...) before anybody thought it could all be related. so i now somewhat doubt hasty conclusions!
also, i know i already suffer from a quite severe mental illness. but for most of my family, this is an embarassement and a humiliation to them (and its not theyre illness!) i seem to have inherited some of these feelings of guilt, embarassement and humiliation when it is question of psychological problems.
sorry, just needed to rant. ooops!!