sorry, this is gonna be a really stupid and pointless post, just need to get it off my chest (no pun intended...)
it would be so much easier right now to just say ""i cant do that, its too difficult"" and just stay at home being miserable all by myself and worrying and feeling sorry for myself. instead, i go to class and sit there, and then at the end i think ""that was pointless, its too difficult"" or i just slept through the class. and getting more and more behind in my homework. tried doing what i thought was the simplest exercise, and got completely stuck, as i cant remember the correct terms for things i know i really know and have studied before (thanks to a stroke three years ago). life is getting so difficult. i always thought before that when i was physically ill (like now) i never really had any problem with the depression side of things, because in these situations you dont really have a choice, you have to fight to keep hanging on to life. but the way i feel tonight seems to be proving my theory all wrong. i dont know how long i can keep doing this, and having to put on a smile and joke about it all.
so sorry, rant over! hope youre all doing as well as can be expected!