Ok, so I know I was only diagnosed a few weeks ago. And I know I don't have it bad. But I'm feeling pretty down and p**sed off and I guess sorry for myself. The self pitying part of me thinks I already have one chronic condition, why do I have to get another? And the other part of me tells me to stop moaning and get on with things. Doesn't stop me feeling crappy about it though.
I haven't had a full day of ""normal"" breathing for months. Certainly not this year. It's pretty tiring. Last night was crap again, today not great either. Just trying to suck it up and get on with it, but I'm so tired.
And I'm pretty irritated with myself for being so naive. I figured it was ""only asthma"" (I'm sorry for using that phrase, until recently I didn't know much about it) and they would just give me a couple of inhalers and all would be well, and I could be like all of those famous people who tell the world that living with asthma doesn't stop you from doing anything. Which I guess it doesn't for many, but while those high profile interviews about it are great, I think it does feed the idea that asthma isn't a serious thing for some.
Sorry, got off track there. It never really occurred to me that it'd take a while to get me on the right drug (just like my psych meds, but please don't let this take 7 years like they did).
I know it's not been long. I know I've only been on the seretide since Monday evening, and that I'm being stupidly impatient. It's just that when I'm tired and uncomfortable like I am I get pretty down about everything, and a little self pitying. I should pull myself together. After all, I don't have it bad.
Sorry for yet another complaining post.