I do not post too much but am a keen reader, but just feel that i need to off load somewhere before something bursts, so apologies for ranting....
I am currently in the 3rd week of being signed off of work which is depressing enough because i am so bored at home and worrying that i am letting colleagues down at work. Each time i think i am getting better, something comes out of the blue to knock me down again.
The longer term picture has generally been more bad days than good and both the GP and con are a bit of a loss at how to help me keep my symptons under control, but its now reached the point that it has a massive impact on my work, social life, family life, daily living etc.
Friends and colleagues try to understand and help, but sometimes too many people offer too many different opinions of what they would do if it was them, that it leaves me with brain melt.
Tried to talk to consultant about confirming that i am following an appropriate management plan, but he showed little interest. Would it be helpful to see the asthma nurse at the GP to discuss a plan?? Perhaps they would have a little more understanding and time??
Its just after 20 months of struggling and no light at the end of the tunnel, its starting to get me down and the tears are flowing. What makes me feel worse is friends/colleagues saying you are always so happy and smiliy despite everything, but then i am afraid to show them how i really feel.
So sorry to moan,
Thanks for the space to off load