Mine has drastically!!
I developed asthma when i was 13 years old. I'm lucky because i've only ever been poorly with it twice in the 34 years of my life. I started smoking quite young, at this time i never really thought how dangerous is was for my asthma.
I gave up when i found out i was pregnant with my son, then restarted about 4 years ago. I used to wake up feeling wheezy. It never stressed me out as i used to have a few puffs of my ventalin then light up a ciggie with my morning coffee.
I gave up smoking 2 1/2 years ago which changed my life completely, as i'm more active NO wheezing ever and i've turned into a real obsessive health freak.
But since my last bad illness in January my asthma has really stressed me out. My peak flow is never below 450. Its between 450 - 500 which is excellent for my height 5ft 3 1/2 inches.
My attitude towards my asthma makes my asthma worse. I'm so obsessed with my breathing i cause myself to hyperventilate.
I've started to tell myself how selfish i am. Theres loads more people with worse illness's than me. And i know some of you guys really struggle with your asthma. I think your all so brave and a real encouragement because of how you cope.
Basically i have let asthma take over my life and now i need to control it. I'm going to Spain on the 1st December for 4 days and i'm scared of being in a foreign country where i don't feel safe.
I wish i could learn to let go of it, but its hard. I haven't spoken to anybody about it. I was hoping my doctor would give me something to make me feel more relaxed but he just mentioned physio for my breathing which i have done and maybe i should practise more.
Its very hard to put into words how i feel, as i am feeling very desperate now as very depressed.
Whos going to kick me up the bum and tell me to deal with it!!!!
****i'm bending over ready******