I mean the snake, not any members called Steve.
Actually I am tempted just to dissolve. Maybe I have PMS or something but I am feeling so discouraged and fed up.
2nd cons appt. He still takes his time to answer questions and does actually listen...so an improvement. He thinks on balance I do probably have asthma though it's also possible I don't.
Problem is, my symptoms do not match up with PF apparently...so I have mild asthma at most? But the annoying symptoms are from 'abnormal awareness' of breathing. And he doesn't know what to do about that. Spirometry this morning a bit pants but that is probably just me with my 'amazing technique' again - tech said lower than last time.
Next appt in 3 months...and meanwhile take Symbicort - highest dose. If that doesn't work (and it didn't before but I may not have given it long enough either time) then he says unlikely to be asthma...and fact that pred didn't work also works against asthma. He has never seen anyone with steroid resistant asthma though admits it is a possibility, but a very unlikely one.
Obviously I'm crossing my fingers the Symbicort works but even if it does it will take a while. And meanwhile, I have Steve etc constantly bothering me and apparently no way to do anything about it, because it's not actually asthma causing most of it!
Really feel like crawling into a hole sometimes. I know many of you have it so much worse and I'm glad it's not severe but when I'm getting the symptoms and it's keeping me awake, knowing that it's probably in my head doesn't really help. Also, why the hell is it in my head anyway? I just can't work out why I would have ended up here and how it has somehow managed to take over my life. Been told not to think about the symptoms too much and I do try not to, but they have a habit of interrupting things!
Aaargghhh...sorry for rant but I do feel so discouraged and fed up right now and like no end in sight. Glad I am still seeing the RBH but tbh I expect they will just say the same. Feel like I am a major basket case lol if my head is causing all this!