I realllllly want to return to work. It's been so long though I'm scared. It's coming up to 6 years and I feel well enough now to return. I just wish I had the confidence. I've seen lots of jobs that I would love to go for but I just can't bring myself to apply for them. The thought of being responsible for everything again and not relying on the guaranteed benefits I currently get is also to blame. My self esteem is quite low and I just worry about what people will think of me. All the 'what ifs' are annoying too, what if my asthma gets really bad again blah blah blah!
Arghh I just need to get out there!
Why can't I just do it grrrr.