I'm a bit cheesed off at the moment. Asthma is rubbish and not settling. been to GP and they put me back on pred, saying I should have started it myself much earlier. Just trying to avoid another stay in hospital. They keep telling me to go straight to A&E and not to them if I get worse as last time I got very sick at the GP surgery. They dont seem to understand what it's like. When i am really wheezy and sleep deprived I sometimes sit for ages wondering what I should do. I know the options are taking steroids myself, going to GP if not too unwell or going to A & E. Trouble is, sometimes I think I am not too bad and go to my GP and they flip out saying that I shouldn't have left it so late and that I should have gone straight to hospital. I never seem to get it right and now feel like they are putting pressure on me, like if I dont take steroids in time, it will be my fault if I end up in hospital. I know they dont mean that but that is sometimes how it comes accross. It's so hard making the correct decision when you are ill. The last time I ended up in hospital I struggled to my GP instead of going to A&E, which I know was wrong. Trouble is, I do not know or remember why I made that choice. Seems logic goes straight out of the window and I sit agonizing over what to do instead of just doing it. Is it just me that can't make a decision? I do know what I am meant to do when things get worse but somehow, I kind of think that if I get to my GP and they listen to my chest and put me on steroids, then they have decided I need to be on them, rather than me having to trust my own judgement. I find I do not always perceive how wheezy I am. Had many nights of broken sleep and nebs, yet during daytime just feel tired, not particularly wheezy. Doc said chest was awful though and why hadn't I already started steroids. I now feel guilty for not taking care of myself but to be honest, I feel like I am unable to judge my situation. Please tell me that someone else feels like this too as I am struggling today and could do with knowing I am not alone.