Hello, this is the first time I've posted a message here and I don't really know what I want to say other than Argh! and Urgh! My beloved 3 yr old son has asthma (you know the story...bronchiolitis at 4 months, followed by several visits to hospital every few months...blah blah). The last 7 months have been the worst ever as he has been hospitalised 6 times in all. The last visit was just 2 weeks after the previous one. His meds have were altered back at Easter time and he is now on Serotide and Singulair.
The reason I am here is that I feel I am in a constant state of knotted stomach cautiousness. He has only to sniff and I start to worry about whether we're off back to Hotel Children's Ward, and how I'm going to juggle it with my work, my husband's work, and our eldest son, I worry about why he keeps going in, I worry about the amount of Pred he has had and the possible effects of it, I worry that he will never ""grow out of it"" as has been sometimes suggested. I feel I can't look forward to much in case the thing I look forward to is cancelled for us because of his asthma (holidays, my sister's wedding etc). I know some of that may sound selfish but I need to get it off my chest!
Having said all that, in between his attacks he is a robust, gorgeous, cheeky chap with a winning personality and good looks to boot. He doesn't let his asthma stop him, and he isn't nearly as badly off as so many children are. I know we are lucky that all we have to cope with is asthma and that it could be SO MUCH worse. So I am sorry if I am whinging.
I just wanted to reach out into the big wide internet to others who may know what I am going through.
Thanks for reading this drivel. It has helped to get it down in cyberprint.