I had PP in 2019, I have 2 children and didn’t have PP with my first child but did with my 2nd.
I resent my baby so much I said unspeakable things, and did horrific things, (including attempting to take both mine and my babys life)
4 years on my relationship with both my children is amazing and I love them both so so much. But I can’t cope with the guilt I feel everytime I look at my kids.
I starting drinking a while ago to mask the guilt and allow me to relax of an evening.
Without a few drinks in the evening I cannot sleep, I am in a horrible mood, and I have horrible scary night mares. But if I do drink I can relax and forget for a moment the guilt I hold.
I have just booked a session with a private concealer but I won’t be able to substantiate the payments so need to find something else.
No real question, just wondering if anyone else has experience anything similar? And how you go through this horrible time?
thank you x
sorry just realised my auto correct!
I did mean counselor