I had my second baby in December 2021. After a long stay in hospital I couldn’t sleep on my first night home and have struggled to sleep since. In the early days I had severe anxiety, it was like physical panic. I have the most awful chest pain. On the 28th January I had a psychotic episode after not being able to sleep for 5 days. I began getting bad intrusive suicidal thoughts and my brain just wouldn’t stop. I also had songs in my head which I still suffer with. I have severe issues with sleep. I can’t sleep naturally and take olazipene every night. The reason I don’t sleep is I have no need for it. My brain is racing 24/7 I’m terrified to go to my bed at night incase I don’t sleep. I’m never tired, like never!!!!! I wake up in the morning and feel like I could run a marathon. I just feel like this is never ending and I’m never going to get better. Has anyone else experience this and came out the other side?
Thanks
Third trimester 30 weeks
Quetiapine dosage question
Angry at the way women are treated post partum
So tired especially in the morning
Hi Katiesmum82,
Welcome to the forum and congratulations on your daughter! I am sorry to hear that you have been struggling with sleep and racing thoughts and that you had a psychotic episode in January this year.
I was diagnosed with postpartum psychosis in 2018 after the birth of my eldest daughter. It is quite terrifying and traumatic, and at the same time a very recoverable illness. The many mums on this forum are proof that you can come back from it and go on to live a full life.
I also took olanzapine in 2018 and 2019 for a year and some months and it did help a lot with my sleep as I was not able to fall asleep naturally either. I was an impatient for 3 months first in an acute psychiatric ward and then in a mother and baby unit. I am wondering were you treated at home or have you been to an mbu? It sounds as if it may be a good idea to check up with the mental health team following you about your racing thoughts and how you are feeling perhaps more wired up and not able to switch off. For me I had a setback while at the mbu when my paranoia and intrusive thoughts came back in full force and it was due to coming off the medication too fast.
I can assure you that things will definitrly get better, this is not at all a forever situation and you will come back to yourself.
Take good care and reach out for help because it is out there for all of us.
Thank you, I was treated at home. This week has been particularly bad and I’m concerned I am becoming reliant on Zoplicone with us a sleeping tablet. The chatter in my head is non stop and I’m not tired when I go to bed which makes it very hard for me to drift off straight away. It takes me s wee bout an hour to fall asleep.
Just struggling to see light at the end of the tunnel just now.
Hi Katiesmum82,
I would try and ask for a review of medication as it feels like you could do with some help to manage your racing thoughts and help you sleep better. I found zoplicone did not suit me, I was still waking up in the middle of the night and had quite some headaches the following day. I hope you are able to get through your team very soon and you can find a dosage and medication that works for you.
Are you also receiving some form of therapy at the moment? Is this something that could be offered by the team looking after you?
Take really good care, things can get better for sure, will be thinking of you
Thank you so much. I was doing therapy, however I have stopped it as I didn’t think I needed it as much. The main thing I fixate over is sleep. Can I ask how long it took you to recover? Thanks xxx
Hi Katiesmum82,
I hope last night was better in comparisson. How are you feeling thia morning?
I think my recovery was in 2 parts, I stopped having symptoms of psychosis after a couple of months but then my recovery from the trauma that pp was took me much longer, a year and some months. It was also a huge period of adjustement as I had it with my first baby and the transition to motherhood is already a whirlwind not even taking pp into account.
Regarding sleep there were a few things I tried that worked with some measure of success, I kept a winding down routine before bed I will drink my nightime tea and put some classical music on for 15 mins. Deep muscle relaxation or meditation clips in youtube were also very useful. I am sorry if you have tried these things and I just preaching to the choir.
I think it may be useful to raise your current struggles to the team looking after you so that they are aware. You deserve to be feeling better and not dreading the nights.
Take really good care, will be thinking of you
Zoplicone is a bad idea in the longer term. It produces rebound insomnia after only a few days of use. It also messes with REM sleep and could possibly make psychosis worse. Rebound anxiety is also a problem. Recent evidence has shown it likely to be addictive. Be aware that when you stop taking this drug, PP may worsen. I would keep any support structure close to you during this period. Olanzapine withdrawal is also potentially problematic, but not like Zoplicone. Does olanzapine help you sleep at all? Wishing you all the best!