Lovely to meet you. I also had PPP after the birth of my 4th daughter in 2018 and I can say that after recovery there is a “shell shock” period and you said that it was a year ago so you may still be in the process?
And it is a process even now I reflect and I have to go through some “moments”
But they do get less frequent;and I have no problem taking about what happened and even laugh about some ridiculous aspects of it.
I just took it day by day. I found “talking therapies” via my Perinatal team at the time really helped me.
I do feel it’s just the body still adjusting...
I also wrote a Diary when I felt anxious and analysed what I was getting anxious about. I was then able to rationalise within myself. (I’m a Christian so I prayed frequently...it helped me a lot)
So these were my ways of dealing with it.
Wishing you all the best and I hope it helped.