Finding myself in the middle of the recovery process. One huge positive step and a milestone will be coming of antipsychotic medication completely next week, six more days to go! Can’t wait to restore myself and have the full liberty of my mind again.
Guided by my EI team tapering down the medicine (Risperidone) it has been gradually reduced over the course of last 6months. Despite me being very eager to come of it as soon as possible, I have been patient and diligent following their advise closely and advise of my Perinatal MH team prior to that up until my daughter turned one.
I have experienced a full blown Postpartum Psychosis in April 2019, 5 weeks following my daughters birth so we have, earlier this year, passed some significant anniversaries. My treatment included 4 months at MBU with four antipsychotics meds changes (began on Haloperidol, then Aripriprazole, then Quitaipine and finally Risperidone) a really long winded search for one which didn’t cause horrendous side effects. Alongside this biochemical treatment I have eventually two months into my MBU admission began psychotherapy with a clinical psychologist and this allowed for much deeper healing of the trauma which stayed residue from the psychosis. This meant to continue now yet because of the lockdown it has been paused.
Is anyone else experiencing the postponed and paused psychotherapy during lockdown an issue? Or do you use video calls?
I had nine sessions with my perinatal clinical psychologist but then my daughter turned one and her input was over and we have carefully planned a handover to a private psychologist, had one session and the lockdown happened.
Speaking with the peer support worker Ellie here from APP has been therefore wonderful and so healing💛 I am so grateful to have her support when the therapy isn’t available.
I guess further to the above question on psychotherapy I would like to ask:
How was it for you coming of the antipsychotics?
I feels like such a long time (14 months in my case) to be under what my GP described as chemical straitjacket effect and influence over my brain and the search for the right treatment, the biochemical cocktail of four different meds! Although a little apprehensive as everyone keeps mentioning the R word (Relapse!) I am looking forward to having the full freedom and liberty of my mind being my own again.
And what about the extra weight I am carrying? People keep talking about the new lockdown body shape, yet in my case I have been steadily putting on weight since being on the meds, I was glowing and in good shape all throughout the pregnancy but then began expanding on the antipsychotics.
How do you/did you manage to tackle the extra weight put on due to antipsychotics? Or is this my new post PP recovery normal? (As of last week my BMI suggests I am obese which is just ridiculous, I have never been this huge before)
Thank you for reading all the way down here, my first post so getting a lot out of my system!