Having a baby

[Bluelady-sing]

Can anyone tell me of there experiences good or bad. Did you go to the perinatal team first or did your PP happen out of the blue, had you ever been hospitalised before?

[LOT1993]

I am bipolar, although I did not know until I had baby, knew it was in the family, though. I don't want to carry on with details, but I will say I live in the US my child is now grown but when I had her in 1993 I had my PPP experience. . It was so very painful and the lowest time of my life. Although I neither murdered her nor killed myself, those ideas were my constant uninvited companions for months. I was very sick, and the type of illness was very misunderstood. To this day it makes me cry, but daughter and I both lived. During recovery, I found a poster stating THE ROAD OF LIFE IS ALWAYS UNDER CONSTRUCTION. I bought it, and kept it during those months, taping it as it tore in five places. I was torn as well. Well that history was more long winded than I thought, but just letting you know I share the pain. Have faith that you are a decent human being even if you don't feel decent, and try to be frank with those closest to you.

[boat1]

PPP happened for me in 2009 I basically had no care plan v difficult labour and history of bipolar and decided to not take meds after delivery. In 2015 I had a baby boy with careful planning from perinatal consultant, early epidural , just breastfed couple of times then started meds same night after delivery. Lithium and low dose Quetiapine to rest/ sleep. Hubby tuk one month of work did night feeds. This all and prayer 😀Kept away another episode completely. Now currently 32wks preg by accident 😱And again off meds and fine. Am considering lithium before delivery in a few wks to lower post natal risk . Still deciding ?

[Bluelady-sing in reply to boat1]

Yes, I can't believe I was stupid I never trust anyone