Anxiety Support NZ
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I don't know if I have anxiety also hi

I think I may have GAD (general anxiety disorder) I usually wear coats even in the summer because when I get nervous sometimes there is a flash and I'm sweating but cold at the same time I have fainted once because I was super nervous and I wear puffy jackets on the bus in case the seat belt cuts me in half yeah I'm crazy and my heart is always pounding and I have shortness of breath sometimes. I always worry about being attacked I'm super paranoid before I get out of the house I think should I bring a knife I don't bring a big one just a small switch blade IDK if it's normal to worry this much I worry about everything and death is a recurring thought and yes I have been down lately Minecraft is the only thing I have now sometimes I cry when I'm home alone one sound will send me into the corner with a butcher knife I even scared someone away on accident that was supposed to be fixing something he saw my scared expression and the butcher knife. I am going to see if I can talk to a therapist

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You should definitely try and speak to a therapist about this! Have you seen a doctor yet? If not, definitely make time to go and see one. I wish you the best and remember you are not alone!


Update: I'm starting to reach out and look for a therapist I have been really upset lately to. Like I'm an evil person and that life is just sad I feel bad for people and that I'm dumb. Now I'm staying up at night because I'm scared if I go to sleep I will die I wake up crying in the middle of the night because of nightmares I feel guilty because I'm the bad guy in them. Sometimes I feel I'm dreaming and I vibrate really fast when I'm scared and then I feel like I'm looking at my body helplessly walking and mumbling and crying. IDK if I even have anxiety anymore maybe I'm just a paranoid freak that's sad....