Hello! I am new here. I'm a 22 year old man who suffers from anxiety disorder for almost 5 years now. It started actually when I was a kid but these 5 years makes me uncomfortable and worried. This condition affects my life like sleeping habit, socialization, even lovelife. What made it worst is sometimes during working hours.
I hate the fact that it's like a roller coaster of emotions. Weird thing is I am ok now then suddenly a wave of sorrows appears in my head and it makes me cry without even know the reason. I already consulted my friend but he doubted me and treat it like a joke. Due to my persistent now he believes what I'm going through.
Most of the time I attack by this condition during night and alone. I know I don't feel loneliness and all, even though I'm independent now for almost 4 years. More like this condition makes me uneasy and acting like a freak. Making me cry at night, sudden pain in my chest and difficulty in breathing was the worst thing to happen.
Whenever I see a teddy bear I badly wanted to buy it to conquer it , even when I'm alone. But due to my ego and I'm quit shy to carry it way back from home (You know I'm a full grown man carrying a teddy bear hahaha). So I just ignored every teddy's I see.
My friend ask me to consult a therapist. My question is how? I am a bit reluctant and doesn't want to open up to the person that I didn't know. One thing it is very expensive. I wish this site would help me, so I know what is the root of this unexplainable feeling. Thanks in advance