I have taken time for myself this morning to do things I want to do. Firstly write my blog and then week 3 of online CBT. I am reading Mindfulness, a practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world, by Mark Williams and Danny Penman. It's interesting stuff, going to try the free meditation cd later
Something seems to be working, although I still get anxious, I deal with it better and don't dwell on it. For example I used to dread the weekends because of the noise in my street, drunks, shouting etc. I would spend all week worrying about what would happen. I have learnt to stop the 'what ifs' during the week and although I get a bit tense on Saturday night I cope much better. OH and I watch a DVD, then I read and before bed I do 30 mins guided meditation. I still get woken up by noise but the anxiety only lasts 10 mins, I can breath myself calm and go back to sleep.
I know I can't change the outside world but I can change how I choose to deal with it. Putting my mind throw summerssalts of trying to find a solution is only going to make me more an anxious.
So today I am being kind to myself, and learning to be at peace with my thoughts.
Love and peace xxx