Living with anxiety Disorder.

[wabra]

Here is my story, i guess i have anxiety disorder since i were kids. i panic for small matter. i even hesitate to talk to strangers i.e. receptionist, shop assistant. i would rather spend half an hour looking for item than asking someone for help. its might sound funny but when i was a kid i used to cry in the exam if i couldn't answer all my questions. Nothing has changed since then. im very pessimistic and always fear the worst. if someone say anything to me i kept thinking about it entire day and moan. i never really had friends. thing goes worse i was recently diagnosed with mild to moderate hearing loss and prescribed to wear hearing aids. its been more than two years i got my hearing aids yet i couldn't manage to wear them. even my flatmate doesn't know that i have hearing loss. i think due to my social phobia and anxiety disorder i couldnt make any friends. to be honest at this point of my life i dnt see the point of living. its tough life out there and i cant face challenge.

[jimboble]

Hi Wabra, Anxiety can be very scary and make you feel the way you do very easily but you must start talking to yourself in a different way. We create the thoughts about ourselves in our own minds and they are often untrue. We often feel worthless and scared because of what we tell ourselves and we assume things that have happened in the past will repeat themselves. Bad experiences in our past can influence the way we think about ourselves and this can affect our behaviour towards ourselves and others. It may seem that things are really terrible but often they aren't as bad as you think they are.

I have been awaking every morning recently every morning recently feeling very anxious and scared, but I tell myself "you are safe and nothing is going to happen to you" I also try to do loving kindness meditation every morning when I feel this way. It is a practice of telling yourself to 'Be Well and Happy' and it works quite well for me although it might take a bit of practice to get used to if you want to try it out. I found this online it helps explain the practice and guide you through it

oprah.com/spirit/Jack-Kornf...

I know how you feel but try to remember you are not alone and the things you feel are natural there are so many upsetting things going on in the world it's no wonder some of us feel this way a lot. Most importantly give yourself time and take small steps at trying to feel better. It is tough out there but you are not alone. I hope you can start to feel better soon. Take of of yourself

Jim x

[jimboble in reply to jimboble]

Sorry for the mistakes meant to say Take Care Of Yourself, at the end.

[Hidden in reply to jimboble]

Hi Jim,

I'm listening now to that link, he has an unusual voice, but once over that, its good good link

Cheers.

[wabra]

funny you mention every morning i find my chest is heavy and i feel very sad. god knows why and what i dream. Let me tell you some example of my anxiety ...if i need to travel i wont be able to sleep. i would fear i might not be there on time . i might forget to bring my documents. i might got struck at traffic and i wont be able to catch my flight.

if my mouth bleed i keep thinking what causing that and i would browse Internet for hours, looking for worst and moan.

when i go out i think everyone is starring at me and talking about me. i always try to avoid crowd. even in library i try to find a quite room.

the problem is my social phobia make friendless now i think i would live rest of my life like that and i would die alone which now make my life point less. to be honest i think about doing suicide zillion of times. every morning i get up and think whats the point of living.