progress? i never really know to be honest.

[Pickle165]

its my birthday today, i am 32 and i guess i thought life was going to be very different or i hoped it would. i have made some good progress last week with my agoraphobia and social anxiety where i managed too go into crowded places on two seperate occassions and managed to eat! but did not feel proud at all of this. looking back i was starting to realise how positive these tasks where......well untill today. i planned to go out for a birthday lunch with my boyfriend but i come over quite bad and couldnt seem to bring the anxiety down and felt at one point my legs were going to buckle underneath me. the dizziness has been bad and i had to rush off to a coffee shop toilet, then again after that and then again i was left with the runs (sorry theres no nice way to say it!) . today was a major knock down for the anxiety, its like being in a life size game of snakes and ladders.......when am i going to get to the finish line? i guess i just needed to have a strop and a good sulk thats all.....sorry guys. also i would like to thank all you lovely people that sent me messages when i was shaking like a leaf last week when i was in the crowded school hall........thank you so much you mean a lot to me my little online family. xxxxxxxxxxxx

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Hi Sam

Happy Birthday To You !!!

Please dont give yorself a bad time , I suffer same as you , today after the weekend might have been one to many

Had someone come out to talk to me last week , they were saying with this , it has to be taken slow , you seemed to go from nothing to all , which I can tend to do as well . please dont beat yourself up

I think you have done fantastic , & I no it was your Birthday , but you can go out in a week or so , when you feel ready & do something , to make up for today

I have a hospital appontment nxt week & believe me if I do half as good as you have these last few days , I will feel proud & so should you

Big Hugs

Love

whywhy

xxx

[seyi]

Hello Sam

Wishing you a Happy Birthday. Agoraphobia and anxiety is something i am experiencing at the moment. The Counsellor i am seeing said i need to try and get out but sometimes i find this so difficult. I became ill In Jan while sitting in a meeting i have not been to work since. But like whywhy said dont beat yourself up over this perhaps make arrangements to go our when your feeling better. Understand the panic and being uncomfortable when your out especially for the loo.

Hope you feel better soon take care

Hugs Seyi xxx

[Jeffju]

I really think we are so hard on ourselves at times.I think we have to take small steps at a time and not to look too far ahead or the big picture sends us to an anxiety state.I was in a proper state last night but today worked out reasonably ok in spite of worrying half the night away. W seem to have our setbacks and wonder if we will ever be our old selves again. i would love that to happen but is a slow process. Have a happy belated birthday and go out when you are feeling ok. HAPPY BIRTHDAY for today. xx

[Pickle165]

thank you guys. i was ment to start cbt today but i just felt so rough this morning that i had to cancel so ill have to re book for another time cos i really dont want to miss that. yesterday evening was nicer when neice and nethew came round, i got so engrossed in them that i felt more at ease. oh well the show must go on. x