progress? i never really know to be honest.

[Pickle165]

its my birthday today, i am 32 and i guess i thought life was going to be very different or i hoped it would. i have made some good progress last week with my agoraphobia and social anxiety where i managed too go into crowded places on two seperate occassions and managed to eat! but did not feel proud at all of this. looking back i was starting to realise how positive these tasks where......well untill today. i planned to go out for a birthday lunch with my boyfriend but i come over quite bad and couldnt seem to bring the anxiety down and felt at one point my legs were going to buckle underneath me. the dizziness has been bad and i had to rush off to a coffee shop toilet, then again after that and then again i was left with the runs (sorry theres no nice way to say it!) . today was a major knock down for the anxiety, its like being in a life size game of snakes and ladders.......when am i going to get to the finish line? i guess i just needed to have a strop and a good sulk thats all.....sorry guys. also i would like to thank all you lovely people that sent me messages when i was shaking like a leaf last week when i was in the crowded school hall........thank you so much you mean a lot to me my little online family. xxxxxxxxxxxx

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Sam1981,

Happy birthday and many happy returns.

I am sorry to read that you had a difficult day today or struggled today.

hugs,

Marcus xxx