I am having a bit of a hard time with my anxiety at the moment, I moved home form University in September and my life has changed so much over the last year. I am taking a year out to work on becoming a teacher, I have broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years a couple of weeks ago, which has left me feeling a bit insecure and strange as I was used to depending on his for my anxiety. I have had lots of different interviews and work 3 different jobs! One of the jobs I work is with my ex and although I am leaving it in a couple of months I am rally getting ready to leave the job and leave it all behind!
I feel like I should be really enjoying myself at the moment, I work part time, I have just moved rooms in my house to a bigger room, I am newly single and have a date organised on Thursday night (aghh) and I have just been offered a job as a Trainee English teacher starting in the next school year! So really, I should be enjoying my time!! I am only 22!
But instead, I feel scared all the time, I am really struggling to sleep, I feel faint a lot and not like myself. I have a terrible cold and find it hard to motivate myself! I get in bed at night and thoughts are just racing around my head! I just want to be enjoying my time!
I know this time will pass eventually, but it makes me sad I can't enjoy it all as it is happening!