hi im deprest ive lived with this for 15 years. I downt sleep i downt feel worthy of a girl freind job or money. I beleve this is down to liveing with a abusive bully my dad and takeing years or abuse at high school at home and as a child. I am back liveing at home and can not cope even being in same house as my dad i sleep allot and can not focus i eat very little and am i isolated in my room at the age of 35 i feel like a falior. And carnt see a way out i allso think off death allot. My dad and family will deny anything that i bring up that has happend in past. I downt think i can forgive my dad as he now lies about it saying it dident hapen with this saint look on his face. I need out off house no money, dole have signed me off any tips for geting back on my feet apresheated. I used to ern a grand a week bricklaying but can not seem to get going. Liveing with this man my confidence is rock bottom and if he sees any sighn of improvement he will put me back down with a sly dig out off ear shot off my mother who beleves him over me like calling me pathetic or saying im upseting my mum. I wont go on pills and i am due for councelling i beleve i need out off house any sugestions would be apresheated.I have allready had 2 major breakdowns in past year.