Hello anyone that may read this.
I'm new on here, but I'm not new to anxiety. Too many awful things have happened this year and in August everything spiralled out of control. I ended up having a nervous breakdown and was put into a psychiatric unit for 3 weeks. I'm now on tablets for depression and anxiety, they took a long time to start working, but after a few weeks they did.
Last Thursday I went shopping and it suddenly hit me that I'm going to be on my own this Christmas, my husband and I separated in March. It felt as if I had been kicked in the stomach.
I spent the weekend alone and the horrible "A" just took control. I just feel I can't handle much more of this, it completely takes over. No deep breathing or anything helps. I just feel so lonely.
I've started to drink wine in the evenings now to try and calm myself down. I know I shouldn't, but I just can't stand anymore of it.