So the main thing causing my anxiety is a severe phobia of sickness (vomiting). Today I am petrified, I feel like I'm in a nightmare that I can't wake up from and it's because someone was sick in my student house last night. I woke up at 3am to the sound of it. I don't know who it was, so I can't specifically avoid anyone. They will have touched food and surfaces and the toilet and the shower. Again, all of these things I can't avoid. The only thing I can think of to help someone understand how this feels is by saying - imagine you know you're going to die in a week and there's absolutely nothing you can do about it. Getting sick is on par with that for me.
My boyfriend doesn't believe anyone was sick but he was asleep at the time. Truthfully, the noises I heard sounded like coughing noises but it was the toilet flushing right afterwards that convinced me. Our brains can be totally irrational at that time of night so I really hope that I was just having a realistic nightmare and none of it actually happened but I don't get on with my housemates so I can't even know for sure because I can't ask them if anyone was ill.
I'm so scared. I can't go in the shower or the toilet or the kitchen but I'm scared to leave my house too in case I come down with the sickness whilst I'm out and I'm scared of being sick in front of other people too but also just being sick and then having to spend a long time travelling back home to bed.