thank you so much to everyone who answered my previous question; it's so lovely to find a site with such lovely people who actually understand how I'm feeling instead of talking to people who feel I should just pull myself together. I would love to know if what i'm currently experiencing is 'normal'. Several times a day when i'm going about my normal business I find that I have to stop and sit down and literally stare into space for a few minutes before being able to carry on and in those moments I feel terrible and feel I can't cope with life anymore. After this happens my face is always aching? I'm on 40g citaprolam and am due to be assessed to see whether CBT would be useful for me. I can't imagine living the rest of my life like this, pretending to my husband that i'm ok and actually interested in life which I'm not really. Am starting to feel what's the point of going on and feel that my children shouldn't be burdened with a parent with MH problems. I know there are 1000s of people much worse than myself but I just feel i'm on a horrible slippery slope.