i have been with my partner for 2 1/2 yrs. in that time we have had 2 children. My partner is a very selfish man who has had issues with alcohol since i met him although to this day he strongly denies that there are any problems with his drinking.
For the time i have been with him i have been left every week with feelings of worry and anxiety because when the weekend comes he disappears to his friend's house and drinks till he cant atand anymore and sometimes their are drug involved too. He knows that i am sitting waiting on him returning. When i tellhim to stay where he is he comes to the door in the middle of the night and tries to kick the door in even though his kids are in the house plus my other 2 children from a previous relationship.
It has gotten to the stage that I cant take anymore i feel as though i get no respect and no help from him atall yet when his friends phone he runs. When hes drunk he begs for help to get off drink yet when hes sober he says that he didn't ask cause he doesn't have a problem.
I cant eat i cant sleep my nerves are shattered and im on citalopram tablets because of the effect of all this on me. Any time we discuss it he says he doesnt do anything wrong and all the problems are in my head he calls me names like nut job and says im a looney and a fruit cake. The thing is the other night i ended up snapping and i hit out at him i know this was wrong.Everything just built up and built up and i lost control.
Can someone please give me some advice on how to deal with this situation???