Sorry it's me again. I'll try to be brief - I'm in my 60s and believe about 75% of my anxiety/depression is due to my geographical/personal/housing circs. I don't see myself getting better in it. I have the possibility (not the certainty) of moving to accommodation/area which I think will be more conducive to my health - far more opportunities for cultural/intellectual activity and social interaction - quite apart from a much more attractive city than the town I presently live in (though that wouldn't be difficult!)
I;m due to go and view the accommodation Monday week, a friend is driving me down - I panicked about that big-time. I'm now panicking about the whole thing - I'm chewing diazepam like there's no tomorrow! Part of me knows - or believes - that I've GOT to try it; part of me thinks - I CAN'T!!!! The only - slightly melodramatic! - analogy I can come up with is - its like, say, you're scared of heights, but you're being chased by a madman with a machete; the only escape is over a rope bridge across a huge chasm. If you don't cross the rope bridge, you will die - but CAN you cross the bridge? I'm standing on the edge of the clifff, looking at the bridge and, at the moment, thinking - I can't do it!
Anyone got any advice/strategies to offer? Sorry to be a pain. Thanks