Hi Everyone. I feel like I have blighted the blog section with such negative blogs recently. So I thought I was would type a positive one
My recent moan was about having to go to London and leave my comfort zone - Home. I've really gotten myself into a rut of feeling uncomfortable leaving my house and getting out and about. It's not so much that I'm scared, it's just like a habit that I want to be there. So my new rule is to push myself. I pushed myself and went to London and it really wasn't that bad at all. I didn't experience any anxiety. It wasn't really my favourite thing to do but I did it and felt better for it. It made me realise that I can still do everything I used to do, I just need to mentally push myself to do it. It's just a frame of mind.
I went out last weekend and bought myself a new walking coat as I've also stopped walking and want to get back into it. I was feeling too scared to go 'into the wild' again as it were, because I was thinking to myself 'what if I need an ambulance because something goes wrong with my heart', 'what if I have an attack and can't move in the middle of nowehere', but I've proved to myself over the past few days that it's all in my head. So I'm planning to to go out this weekend with my bf and dog for a good long walk. I'm feeling really positive about it.
I know I could come back on here next week and be feeling rubbish again, but I'm starting to see more and more positive days slipping through which feels great.
My biggest realisation this week is how big a deal I make things. I made London into this really big thing that was dramatic and I didn't want to go, when actually, it was nothing. I realised it's a really bad habit I've developed - blowing things out of proportion. I create stress for myself when there is no need.
Has anybody else experiences any positive days and phases recently?