So I've talked about this on here before, but I have really really bad anxiety about my wisdom teeth removal. What's worse is it's not the run of the mill anxiety that most people have about wisdom teeth removal, it's unique to me or at least a small percentage of people. Maybe there are more people out there with this anxiety and they just haven't reached out for help, but whatever the reason I cannot find any advice on how to overcome it.
See, I'm not anxious about the needles, the pain, the GOING under, the fact that something may go wrong or anything like that, which seems to be the run of the mill anxieties. No no. My anxiety is about WAKING UP from the sedation. Notice I emphasized that I'm not anxious about going under sedation, more so waking up from it.
And I did try really hard to find a solution for this anxiety. I researched like heck what the sedation options I had were and I specifically focused my research on the website of the oral surgeon I would be using. I finally found an option that made my anxiety lessen.
Awake and minimal to no mental recovery time! Perfect!
I researched local anesthetic specifically and walked into my first consultation thinking I was prepared and informed. Almost immediately that relaxation and peace I was feeling was shattered when the nurse told me "Oh the doctor does NOT perform wisdom teeth extractions without full sedation." When I tell you my stomach dropped, I mean downhill on a rollercoaster dropped. I immediately tensed up and started having an anxiety attack.
I started shaking, my eyes filled with tears, my heart was pounding super fast, I was picking my nails to the point of bleeding and so on.
I did try to "fight" the oral surgeon on this requirement, trying to explain to him that it was literally the only thing I was anxious about. THE ONLY THING. And I told him that I really really preferred staying awake or at least I wanted an option that would limit my loopiness to not very long. No luck.
It was super irritating for me because I knew that the option that he wants me to do, general anesthetic, is the deepest level of sedation offered. I wanted the least, he TOLD ME that the most was the only option. His website says otherwise though! There is literally an option that says, and I quote, "excellent choice for those who do not want to be knocked out, but want something stronger than nitrous oxide." Like HELLO!!! Why not offer the patient who is obviously very very anxious about being put under, the alternative that would keep her awake like she wants?
And this is what the website says about wisdom teeth specifically under the How They Are Extracted column, "All patients receive local anesthetic, and we are happy to provide sedation if needed, from simple nitrous oxide (laughing gas) through outpatient general anesthesia." Key words: IF NEEDED and notice how it indicates I have options?
I wish I would have argued more and found a way to help him better understand how much he could lessen my anxiety by just considering my mental health. I respect that he is obviously more knowledgeable about the topic than I am and obviously knows better than me, however I also wish he would have been more considerate about offering different options.
From what I have been able to understand about my situation, none of my wisdom teeth are emergencies. He literally told me I could go years and they would never cause any problems. And from my x-rays that I saw, they are all growing in upright if maybe one slightly tiled, not completely sideways though and NO PAIN. The general anesthetic option he wanted me to do is, from what I have read, used for more severe cases. If mine was severe, I doubt he would have told me that I could get them removed whenever I felt ready.
I'm just in a bad dilemma. Do I trust this doctor who has made me feel like I will be in extreme pain during the operation if I choose a non-sedative anesthetic? Or do I find a doctor who will perform the operation with my preferred sedation/anesthetic but risk pain during?
I'm not afraid or anxious about the being put under part, I'm anxious about the waking up and being out of it. Really though, if they could guarantee that I would just be loopy for like 45 minutes after and that I could stay in the recovery room until I was mentally there, I would be 100% fine with that. It's the idea of having to be helped...no no actually freaking WHEELED out of the building because that's what this freaking place does....and having my mother see me in a loopy state that sends a surge of anxiety. Juts typing it out right, is making me anxious.
It's bad enough that at least the first day I will have to be taken care. That sends shivers over my whole body...the idea of being an invalid. I don't want to be like a drunk and not be able to be myself. That is why I am so freaking anxious and it's the only thing that I am anxious about!!
Anyone out there feel or felt the same way?