Crippling

[anon99]

Crippling, debilitating, defeating. These are just three of the words I use to describe anxiety. I started to feel anxious and just scared- I was hit with fear out of nowhere.. but I told myself to get up and go sit outside while this feeling is here and let it pass enjoying the fresh air while my dog plays in the grass. I told myself I’ve felt this before and I was fine, and I will remain fine. Thoughts coming and going by in my head like traffic telling me I’m going to die but I as calmly as I can remind myself I am safe. Derealization kicks in and tries to scare me.. telling me I’m about to go crazy or hallucinate, and things look out of the ordinary. I look up and my dog has dug three holes all while I’m in a fog without me even noticing. Who is this person I’ve become? I’m sad. So I’ll continue to plead and pray for my life back.

[Agora1]

anon, as calmly as you can, keep telling yourself that your are save

and continue doing what you want. That is Dr. Weekes theory of

acceptance and floating past the fear. I just saw your post now.

I hope you've settled down some. xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

I’ve had odd feelings come and go all day trying to scare me. I still feel so exhausted. I’m just glad I haven’t had an anxiety attack in a few days.. x

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

I'm glad to hear that as well. Anxiety will try it's best to

lie to you. The more you ignore the feelings, the less anxiety

will try. It will get bored and move onto someone else... Really xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

Not that I want someone to go through what I’ve been going through the past few weeks.. but phew. It’s time for it to go. haha

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

Kick it to the curb lol

That's what I use to tell myself. xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

It’s so so hard when your brain feels normal one minute and all wonky the next. But I just force myself to believe I’ll be fine.

Like right now I’m worried about my bruised sore arm from blood work four days ago. But I’ll be fine. Lol I hope you’re having a good weekend, friend. 🤗

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

Your arm is healed by now. Left may be a little bruise

that will go away on it's own. Have a good Sunday tomorrow.

I'll be around xx

[Lallie79]

Crippling and debilitating are the two words I also use to describe anxiety. Unless you have lived through the depths of the nightmare that is anxiety you simply cannot explain it to anyone. I had no idea how life changing living with this was and admittedly probably underestimated how God awful the condition was before I started to suffer a few years ago. I feel your pain. Know that you aren't alone x

[anon99 in reply to Lallie79]

So true. I’m glad I found this forum or I would be in much worse shape mentally.. it’s good to know we aren’t alone.