Not Coping

[Booblet]

Hi everyone,

Well, a few days ago I took quite a few tabs (from my prescribed antidepressants).

My method was definitely a cry for help. I knew exactly how much more to take if I really wanted to commit suicide.

My mother died 9mths ago, I fell out with my three brothers who were only after her money.

I suffer from depression depression and anxiety (both severe), - which was brought on by perimenopause, still having periods at 60! - addressed this by seeing a Gynecologist last wk who said my cervix was fine, in other words no problems:

I have M. E, underactive thyroid, B12 deficiency, adrenals not performing - seen Dr Peatfield:

All the above medical problems are covered with medication.

What finally did it was my severe arthritis in my right knee. It is now so bad that I can hardly walk: I have been told I need a new knee but have to loose weight :I have lost 2 and half stone, but need/want to loose another 3 stone to get the maximum and safe knee replacement.

I am so, so depressed at the moment, saw mental health team at the hospital after my overdose, they were helpful with suggestions and coping strategies, but I haven't the energy or inclination to act on this.

I haven't even taken the medication for my other symptoms stated above. (I take NDT - natural dessicated thyroid), B complex with folate, fish oil tabs for Arthritis, B12 injections every 8 wks - although I know that an injection once a wk would help me: I even have the needles ect to comply with this: but again it is to much 'manage' due to severe depression and anxiety.

I can't seem to help myself at the moment, I have no energy, very lethargic, no interest in social activities

, And forgot to mention have severe Eczema.

I want to get better but do not have much faith at the moment.

I live with my partner and he tries to help and support me, but is not very demonstrative, which I need so much.

My daughter also left for University last night Yr quite a way from home and I miss her dreadfully.

Can anybody please help?

[Hobbitz]

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through such a tough experience. Its such a difficult time of year for those of us who suffer from anxiety and depression, with so much pressure from everyone around, especially the media to be happy.

Well done for being so brave and letting people in to your mindset. Depression tries to isolate us and make us feel alone and out of control of our lives. By reaching out and being honest about how you feel is such an amazing thing to do. So many of us suffer in silence.

I'm sure there nothing I or anyone can say that can take away from the pain that you must be feeling, both emotionally and physically but just remember that you are not alone. You are a fighter and you will get through this. Just take it one step at a time and be kind to yourself. Some days will be harder than others, but bit by bit you will get there.

xx

[Booblet in reply to Hobbitz]

Aw thank so much. You have made me feel so much better and worthwhile.

And moreso, a like myself a bit better!

God bless, xxxxxxxxxxxx

[Kaytee1981]

Oh booblet what a lot you have going on you must feel overwhelmed by it all? Try taking on small tasks, take 1 thing at a time and celebrate your small steps you deserve it. Have you tried helplines when your feeling low/down/suicidal? Taking that few minutes to talk to someone else about your problems should be something positive I find that the different take on things is helpful in putting life into perspective.

It sounds like you need a little bit of a routine especially if your medication is a problem- I hate taking my meds.

[Booblet in reply to Kaytee1981]

Thank you so, so much for your wonderful (and very supportive) reply. It has helped me so much.

When you get answers to such questions as mine (which can be seen has complex) it is such a great privilege that people such as yourself take the time to read, digest and reply to such questions.

A very big thank you from me. Xxxxxxxxxxxx

[osbo54]

I remember watching a show on depression and suicide awhile ago and the person said something that stuck with me. When you are in that state, they said just remember two words. "Hold on." The reason being, emotions can be so fleeting. They come and go so quickly. They affect your mental frame of mind. So, everything can change in the next second and for the better. We would never know that if we were to take a drastic step. So, I don't know if that helps any, but those words always stuck in my mind. "Hold on."

[Booblet]

Do you know since mentioned the 'hold on' in relation to my situation, I have said these two words so many times... It has really helped me. I have even wrote them down too.

Thank you for your time and kindness.

God bless xxx